WIP Excerpt: Captive of the Falconstar, Chapter 1

This book is a direct sequel to Queen of the Falconstar, which has been out for a few years now. I’m working on finishing the trilogy, trying out my new AI-assisted writing process to see how it does with a series that I’ve already started. So far, it’s going pretty well.

This draft is pretty rough, so you’ll see a lot of AI-isms that are going to get smoothed out before the final draft, but there’s a good chunk of human writing in there too, including the entire first scene. But that’s also kind of rough, so it will go through a couple of revisions before the novel is finally published.

If all goes well, Captive of the Falconstar should be out by the middle of next year, with the final book in the trilogy, Lord of the Falconstar, coming out soon after. One of the nice things about writing with AI is that it really helps to make the writing more efficient, so that I don’t get stuck on writer’s block nearly as much. Hopefully that will translate to much shorter wait times between books, since I really should have finished this trilogy years ago.

Enjoy!


Sonya

Sonya had never felt so happy, wandering the chaotic bazaar of Graznav Station with Petyr’s hand firmly clasped in her own. A large merchant ship had just come in from the Tajji Union, and there were so many wonderful new goods to browse. Even so, the noise and bustle of the bazaar all faded into the background as she lost herself in the company of her betrothed.

“I think I love you, Petyr,” she said, daring to give voice to the unspoken affection between them that had grown and matured for so long. For a moment, she feared that he would brush it off—say something disappointingly cavalier, like “I know”—but instead, he turned and gave her such a warm and honest smile that she knew she would love him forever.

For the next few moments, she stared back into his eyes as he stared into hers, drinking in each other like a fine wine. Time slowed until it was barely a crawl—as if this moment of pure and innocent bliss would go on forever. Petyr was not a child anymore: his rugged face was punctuated with manly stubble, his jawline square and his chest broad and muscular. And beneath the scent of engine oil and foreign spices that permeated the station’s bazaar, his manly and familiar musk comforted her and made her feel safe and loved.

Home, she thought silently, closing her eyes as she leaned into his chest. This was her home, her safe place, her refuge from the storm. And for the briefest moment, she could believe that it was real.

But all too soon, the moment passed. Her dream faded as sleep fled her all too soon, and she found herself blinking and staring up at the gaudily painted ceiling above her. Instantly, she knew that she was in the small annex of the master suite on board the Falconstar, not home on Graznav Station. And Petyr, her betrothed, was light-years away from her by now—if he was still alive at all.

No, she thought silently, her whole body tensing as she woke back up to the nightmare that was her life now. The background hum of the Falconstar’s engines seemed to roar in her ears, reminding her of her captivity. How many months had it been now since she’d been ripped away from her home? She drew a deep breath, her chest constricting as she steeled herself for another dayshift as a slave of the Hameji.

Well, not exactly. Technically, she wasn’t a slave, but a “maidservant”—her friend Zlata had seen to that. But to Sonya, it was a distinction without a difference.

She sat up on her uncomfortable cot just as the bedroom door to the master suite hissed open. The sound made her jump in surprise. She hurriedly clutched the thin blanket to her chest as Lord Khasan Valdamar stepped through.

The man who was now her captor stood tall, his muscular frame filling the open doorway as his brown eyes quickly scanned the room before falling on her. Even dressed in nothing but a robe, he exuded a commanding presence that made Sonya shrink and tremble. From the way she looked at him, she seemed to be nothing more than another asset in the ship’s inventory.

“Good upshift, Mistress Gulchen,” he greeted her with a perfunctory nod.

“L-lord Khasan,” Sonya answered, lowering her gaze as she struggled to keep her voice steady.

The Hameji clan lord took a step toward her, making her whole body tense with alarm. He narrowed his eyes with a look of disapproval.

“I see you are still dressed in your bedclothes.”

“Y-yes, Milord,” she stammered.

“That is not acceptable. Rouse yourself and prepare for the dayshift. I know you are Zenoba’s maidservant, but I am the captain of the Falconstar. My word is law.”

Sonya’s whole body shook, as if she expected him to strike her at any moment. But the authoritative tone of his voice was as strong as any blow.

“Of course, Milord. I’ll get ready at once.”

“See to it, Mistress Gulchen. I do not wish for Lady Zenoba to want for anything.”

With that, he turned and strode back into the bedroom, letting the door shut behind him with an ominous hiss. Sonya let out a breath she didn’t know she’d been holding, and hastily rose to her feet, shedding her bedclothes and dressing herself in the simple and ugly servant’s tunic that the Hameji had provided for her.

She had barely fastened the clasp around her waist when the bedroom door opened and Lord Khasan stepped out again, dressed now in his gray captain’s uniform. A massive curved dagger was sheathed on his hip, its gold-plated hilt somehow looking not at all out of place with the immaculately clean military garb of the Hameji. On his other side, a fearsome firearm was holstered so snugly it almost looked like an extension of his body.

Sonya bowed her head respectfully as he passed her, barely acknowledging her with a nod. He crossed the master suite’s front room and opened the door to the Falconstar’s main hall, greeting the two guards who stood watch for Lady Zenoba. Sonya heard only a small fragment of their conversation before the door hissed shut behind him, sealing her back in the apartment that she and Lady Zenoba now shared.

“Right,” she said, willing herself to relax a little now that the fearsome Hameji Lord was gone. She turned to the still-open doorway leading to the bedroom and rapped softly on the doorframe.

“Zlata? Are you awake?”

Her friend and oncetime fellow captive stretched languidly amidst the scarlet bedsheets and yawned. Her bare skin was still flushed from the early morning sex that she and Lord Khasan had doubtless just partaken in. The heady scent of it almost made Sonya gag. But Zlata herself seemed profoundly satisfied, and regarded Sonya with an almost sultry gaze, heedless of her own disheveled state of undress.

“Oh, there you are. Is it upshift already?”

Sonya bit her lip and nodded. “Do you… want me to give you some privacy?”

Zlata yawned and pulled the bedsheets off of her. “That won’t be necessary, Mistress Gulchen. Better to rise up and prepare for the dayshift. Here, help me.”

Sonya stepped forward and helped her gather the sheets, doing her best to avoid the wet spots. It had been nearly a month since Zlata had become Khasan’s wife and Queen of the Falconstar, but they still spent almost every nightshift engaged in carnal activities, and the clean up afterward had become something of a routine. As Zlata wrapped her body in the plush, soft fabric of her bedrobe, Sonya stuffed the dirty sheets into the laundry hamper and laid out clean ones to replace them.

“Is everything alright, Zlata?” Sonya asked, noting how Zlata paused before the mirror on the far side of the bedroom, her black hair cascading over the white fabric of her robe.

“My name is Zenoba,” Zlata muttered, glancing at Sonya through the reflection. “You must remember to use my Hameji name.”

Sonya frowned. “But I thought that was only for when we—”

“Call me by my Hameji name,” Zlata repeated firmly. Through the mirror, her striking eyes fixed on Sonya with an intensity that demanded obedience.

“Of course, Lady… Zenoba,” Sonya forced out. The Hameji name felt like acid on her tongue. It almost physically pained her to address her former friend with the name their captors had given her—but of course, Zlata wasn’t a captive anymore. She was one of them.

“Here,” said Zlata, opening the closet and selecting a green, high-collared dress. “Carry this for me.” She handed the clothing to Sonya, who held it mutely as Zlata perused the drawers to complete the outfit. 

Am I just another accessory to you now? Sonya thought bitterly as Zlata led them out into the hall of the women’s quarters to the bathroom facilities that they shared. Hatred and anger flared in Sonya’s gut like the ever-present fire at the heart of a reactor core, carefully contained but still full of burning energy just waiting to be unleashed. She carefully held onto that energy, knowing that without it, the circumstances of her captivity would have already crushed her fragile spirit.

The bathroom was not vacant, but Zlata hardly seemed to care. She shed her bathrobe on the cold tile floor and stepped into the open shower unit, leaving Sonya to wait for her outside. Sonya carefully placed the clothes on a nearby counter and retrieved the bathrobe, exchanging it for a towel. This, too, had become part of the insufferable routine.

A toilet flushed, and an overweight red-headed girl stepped out of the stall. Even though Sonya stood almost half a head taller than her, Aruzhan still seemed to look down at her she walked past her without a word. Sonya bit her lip and bowed her head demurely, carefully cultivating the anger in her heart.

I’m not afraid of you, she thought inwardly. And before I get out of this place, I’ll see you wipe that condescending look off of your face.

At length, the shower cycle finished, and Zlata stepped out, holding up her arms as Sonya dried her. Of course, she was capable of drying herself, but she seemed to take pleasure in letting Sonya do the work—which was, after all, just another form of condescension. Sonya grit her teeth and complied without a word, carefully feeding the anger into her heart.

“Dress me,” Zlata ordered as she finished wrapping the towel around her head. Her voice was soft but no less commanding.

“Yes, Milady,” Sonya said softly, unfolding the dress and helping Zlata into it. As she did, one of the other women of the Falconstar stepped into the doorway.

“Good upshift, Lady Zenoba.”

“Good upshift to you, Lady *Kulen! Are we still on for tea with Lady Nari?”

“Of course, Milady. And I have to say, I’ve been very impressed with how…”

Sonya pointedly ignored their conversation as she finished helping her former friend get dressed. If Zlata wanted to treat her like nothing more than an accessory, then that was what she would be. After all, there were certain advantages to being functionally invisible—especially when the people who made it a point to ignore you were the ones who were going to pay.

Before I get out of this place, you’ll wish you hadn’t ignored me.

Each layer of fabric that Sonya spread onto Zlata’s skin was like another barrier between them. The differences in their bodies were stark: Zenoba’s thin frame was a study in sharp angles, while Sonya’s more feminine curves filled out her simple tunic almost to the point of bursting. Still, at least she didn’t have to wear the horrid thing that Zlata had picked out.

That’s only because she hasn’t asked me to accompany her to Lady Nari’s, Sonya told herself. She shuddered as she remembered what Zlata had made her wear the last time they’d gone to Lady Nari’s together. Not that it had helped her to feel any less vulnerable or exposed before the dowager queen of the Falconstar. She shuddered again—that woman frightened her even more than Lord Khasan himself.

At length, Zlata bade farewell to Lady *Kulen and turned to Sonya. “Shall we return to our apartment, Mistress Gulchen?”

“As you wish, Milady.”

She trailed behind Zlata as they walked back through the colorful hallway of the women’s quarters, decorated with silk wall hangings and little gold tassels dangling from the ceiling. The shaggy carpet would have felt soothing against Sonya’s bare skin, if she didn’t feel so horribly out of place.

Zlata palmed open the door, and they stepped back into the apartment that they both shared. As Zlata made herself comfortable on the divan, Sonya’s eyes lingered on her cot, remembering with some wistfulness the dream from the nightshift before. She bit her lip to keep from crying.

“Would you like to play a game of Damka while we wait for breakfast, Gulchen?”

Sonya carefully clenched her fists, keeping them out of view. “Will you stop calling me that, please?” she asked, forcing herself to meet Zlata’s gaze. “My name is Sonya.”

Zlata stared at her for several moments, her eyes unreadable. “But your Hameji name is Gulchen. You chose it yourself.”

As if I had a choice! Sonya wanted to scream. Instead, she took a deep breath and cultivated her growing rage.

“My name is Sonya,” she repeated, as if that were answer enough.

Zlata sighed. “Do you really want to make a big deal out of this? We are both Hameji now. It’s only fitting that we should use our Hameji names.”

“No, it’s not,” Sonya insisted, unable to hold herself back. “I’m not going to forget who I am. I’m never going to forget.”

“That’s not what I’m asking you to do,” Zlata retorted. “I’m only asking you to accept that this is who you are now. Our names give us power, and sometimes we must shape ourselves anew to properly wield it.”

Her words made Sonya want to scream. Instead, she took a deep breath and looked Zlata in the eye.

“My name… is Sonya.”

They stared at each other in tense silence for several moments. It took a feat of will for Sonya not to turn away. But she held her gaze firmly until Zlata finally sighed and shook her head.

“Very well,” she said at length. “If Sonya is truly the name you wish to go by, then that is what I will call you whenever I can. But I expect you to call me Zenoba, even when it’s just the two of us alone.”

“Yes, Milady,” said Sonya, with only a hint of sarcasm in her voice. Zlata still picked up on it, though, and raised an eyebrow.

“Sonya?”

“Yes, Zenoba,” she said quickly, looking away. “I hear you.”

“Good. Now, how about a little Damka?”

Sonya sighed and sat down on her cot as Zlata set up the board. Who was she to refuse? After all, whether she was a maidservant or a slave or something else entirely, the one thing she knew was that she was no longer free.

But somedayshift, I will be, she inwardly resolved. And when I finally am, Zlata will pay.

Khasan

Khasan stood ramrod straight as his gaze swept the view from the observation deck. Out here, in deep space, the stars in their myriad thousands were all distant points of light, glowing like cold jewels from the depths of a fathomless abyss. Out here, the Falconstar was his only world; any accompanying friendly starships were little more than nearby islands, and enemy ships existed only as blips of data on a screen. There were no other ships for at least a parsec, though, which suited Khasan just fine. The solitude of the stars was lonely and cold, but it issued no judgment, nor tried to force his hand.

The last few months had been surprisingly eventful. He had raided the planetborn for starships and had come back with a pair of slaves. He had lost his chief advisor—the traitor!—and won a ruthless wife. He had broken off a marriage arrangement that would have secured his family’s safety, at the expense of their family name, and had plunged them anew into peril for the promising hope of a glorious restoration. 

He narrowed his eyes and clenched his fists. By all the holy stars before him, he would not rest until the Valdamar Clan had been restored.

Khasan Valdamar stood tall, his back straight and eyes fixed on the small dots of light that illuminated the darkness outside the viewport. They were distant stars, but to him, they held a lifetime of memories- of his childhood, of his ancestors, and now, of his own struggles as the ruler of the Valdamar Clan. Nergui’s betrayal still haunted him, and a part of him yearned for his old advisor, even though he now knew the man was a traitor.

The door to his private quarters whooshed open, and Zenoba entered with purposeful strides. She was newly appointed as matriarch of the Valdamar clan, her eyes reflecting both authority and curiosity.

“Zenoba,” he greeted her, barely hiding his eagerness. Nergui had always opposed his marriage to her, but now she at least partially filled the void that his betrayal had left behind.

“Khasan,” she said, as if confirming his thoughts.  “We need to speak about what lies ahead for us.”

He turned from the stars, his piercing brown eyes meeting hers. In their depths, a tumultuous sea of ambition and resolve churned. “We will expand our fleet,” Khasan declared, his words slicing through the uncertainty that hung between them. “The betrayal of Nergui has left a void, but it also gives us clarity. We must expand our strength by raiding the planetborn, seizing their ships.”

“I see,” she said, her mind racing through all the possible outcomes. “Must we cause so much bloodshed, though? Is there no other way to strengthen our clan?”

“Blood is the price we pay for greatness,” Khasan replied, his voice filled with fervent determination. “Our ancestors understood this, and so must we.”

She nodded. “I stand by your side,” Zenoba affirmed, her loyalty unwavering. “But I need to fully comprehend what we plan to do.”

“Then let me show you,” he said, a hint of vulnerability creeping into his stern demeanor. He led her to the holographic display at the center of the room and activated it, revealing a star map dotted with enigmatic symbols.

Zenoba stepped closer, her gaze falling upon the projected star systems. “You intend to raid the planetborn?” she inquired, her voice tinged with a supportive curiosity. She knew the importance of expanding their fleet, but the layers of political intricacies were not lost on her.

“Indeed,” he confirmed, “Our future—and the future of the Valdamar clan—lies in the ships we capture. But first, we will journey to the secret holdings of Clan Valdamar to gather supplies and men. Besides, as Lady in Command, it is important that you should see these holdings for yourself, and be able to assess the true strength and weaknesses of our clan.”

Zenoba leaned forward, her black hair falling like a shadow across her face. Her striking eyes darted over the display, taking in the information with keen interest. “This will not be a short voyage,” she observed.

“Indeed, it will not be,” Khasan affirmed. “But the rewards will be worth it. We have hidden these ships away for a reason, and now, in our time of need, we will make use of them.”

Zenoba nodded in understanding. “And what of the planetborn?” she asked. “Where do you plan to strike?”

Khasan’s expression hardened. “The planetborn are weak and complacent,” he replied. “They do not possess the strength to defend their territories against us. Still, we are not yet strong enough to take what is rightfully ours. We must be cautious, and choose our targets carefully.”

“Of course. Will you leave me behind in the secret clan holdings while you conduct this raid?”

“No, my love. The Falconstar is more than a ship; it is our home, our fortress among the stars,” Khasan stated, pride swelling in his chest. “It will carry us safely, and there, you will witness the full extent of our potential.”

“Show me,” she said, accepting the challenge his invitation presented.

He nodded, a silent acknowledgment of her role in his life and the unfolding saga of their clan. Together, they would venture into the fringes of space, to an uninhabited system where the roots of their power spread unseen.

They spoke for a while afterward, about less pressing matters. He enjoyed her company, and found himself relaxing in her presence in a way that he never could with Nergui. And yet, the stakes of their next raid hung over him, never far from his mind. Sensing this, she excused herself.

As she left his quarters, the ship’s engines hummed with readiness, a deep vibration that resonated with the pulse of Khasan’s own heart. The stars beyond called to him, and he answered with the determination of one who would stop at nothing to restore his clan to its former glory, to carve out a legacy that would endure through the ages.

Zenoba

Zenoba’s footsteps echoed softly against the cold, metallic floors of the Falcontar’s corridors as she made her way to the bridge. The steady hum of the ship’s engines reverberated softly through the bulkheads, a constant reminder that this sleek and powerful vessel was an island in the infinite void. Was it strange that she felt so at home here? She dismissed the thought before it had any time to take hold in her thought. Of course it was not strange. For a Valdamar queen such as her, it was only natural.

The door parted before her, and she stepped onto the bridge of the Falconstar with a soft but confident stride. As she gazed upon the suite of intricate control panels and glowing consoles manned by the dozen or so bridge officers, she felt a sense of awe rise within her. This was the beating heart of their starship, the very center of their sanctuary in the depths of interstellar space.

Gavirl, the Captain of the Falconstar’s Guard, acknowledged her presence with a curt but respectful nod. The dim lighting cast soft shadows across his sharp features, defined by a strong jawline that was framed with a short, thick beard. He turned to face his captain, his face a stoic mask.

“Lord Khasan,” Gavril announced. “Lady Zenoba has joined us.”

“Excellent,” Khasan replied from the captain’s chair. He rose and turned to greet her, his muscular silhouette outlined against the glow of the display screens and the view of the starfield outside. Zenoba smiled inwardly at the sight.

“Excellent,” Khasan replied from the captain’s chair, his muscular silhouette outlined against the vast backdrop of space. His body was coiled like a spring, his eyes darting feverishly between screens. 

Zenoba gave Gavril a curt nod and stood by the captain’s chair, taking her place beside her husband as Lady in Command.

“Status report,” Lord Khasan barked, his voice resounding through the bridge with sharp precision.

Jabeg’s confident voice rang out above the din. “Coordinates locked in and engines primed for jump.”

Elbek’s fingers danced over his console, a silent symphony of war and defense. “Weapons systems are in standby, Lord Khasan. We are ready for jump.”

“What about the rest of the fleet?” Zenoba asked.

“Communications channels will be limited during the jump, Lady Zenoba,” Shilugei added, his sharp features set in a mask of focus. “But I’ll ensure you remain informed.” There was a reverence in his tone, reserved for those of Zenoba’s new station.

Khasan’s hand hovered over a panel, fingers curling into a tight fist before finally pressing down to initiate their first leap into the unknown.

“Let’s go,” he commanded, his determination palpable and echoing throughout the ship as they hurtled towards their destination.

“Jump commencing in three… two… one…”

A gut-wrenching lurch, a gasping breath—the universe collapsed in on itself. In that split second, the void consumed all, its emptiness consuming the very essence of existence. But then, like a fierce phoenix rising from the ashes, the Falconstar emerged on the other side, victorious and unbreakable.

“Jump successful,” Jabeg reported, relief palpable in his tone.

“Let us offer our prayers,” Khasan intoned, and the bustle quieted to a sacred hush. “For the stars guide us, and the darkness shields us.”

Khasan stood with arms outstretched, invoking the power of the star map projected on the wall. The rest of the crew circled around him, their heads bowed in reverence to the ancient deities.

“Oh great Tenguri, Lord of the Celestial Heavens and Father of all, we invoke thy holy name and reverence thee.”

“Oh Karduna, God of *, we ask for thy blessing and favor as we embark on this great journey.”

“And thou, New Rigel, vouchsafer of ancient and forgotten wisdom, we revere thee last of all, that our voyage may be blessed. Amen”

As he recited the Hameji chants of navigation, Zenoba felt her soul stir with primal energy. She watched in awe as Khasan’s words conjured an aura of magic and purpose within the room.

“Never forget our purpose,” Khasan continued. “Our mission is crucial to the survival of our people and the blessings of the gods.”

Zenoba nodded, feeling a renewed connection to her pagan roots and a fierce determination to see their quest through to the end. They were united by their shared devotion and trust in each other, guided by the unseen forces that governed their destinies.

As the echo of the last prayer dissipated, Zenoba excused herself, her footsteps silent on the metal deck as she made her way back to the women’s quarters. She could sense that she was no longer needed or wanted on the bridge, despite Khasan’s polite dismissal.

“I’ll leave you all to your duties,” she said with a small smile, acknowledging that her duties as lady in command were done. The men could rest more easily, after she had returned to the womens’ quarters.

Khasan gave her a nod of understanding, his attention already shifting back to the star map displayed on the wall. Jabeg and Shilugei were deep in conversation, their voices hushed but urgent.

Zenoba glided down the narrow hallway towards the women’s quarters, adorned with intricate tapestries and sacred symbols of their beliefs. As she entered the familiar space, a wave of serenity washed over her, surrounded by her sisters in faith. The soft rustle of silk and exotic fragrances greeted her, a stark contrast to the clinical atmosphere of the bridge. Here, among the female nobility of Clan Valdamar, strength and elegance intertwined within the metallic walls of their warship, creating a powerful presence that commanded respect.

Amidst the soft glow of the starship’s interior, Lady Nari’s silver hair shimmered. She sat beside the aquaponics tanks in the lounge, surrounded by a circle of women as they knit and tended to their craft. Khasan’s mother was the undisputed matriarch, her brown eyes holding the weight of wisdom and unspoken authority.

“Good downshift, Lady Zenoba,” Lady Nari greeted her, rising in respect. The others followed.

“Please,” said Zenoba, raising her hands. “There is no need to rise on my account.”

“On the contrary,” said Lady Nari, a glint in her eye. “As Lady in Command, your rank on this ship is now equivalent to mine—and I would certainly take it as an affront if you did not show the same respect to me.”

They resumed their seats, Lady Nari’s *golden samovar set in the center of the room, where Aruzhan tended to it.

Lady Gerel, Khasan’s half-sister, smiled warmly at Zenoba, her dark red hair falling in loose waves around her rosy cheeks. Her gentle demeanor belied the fierce loyalty that bound her to her brother’s cause.

Towering over them all was Lady Khulan, tall and statuesque with sharp eyes that missed nothing. Her midnight-black hair was meticulously braided and her presence commanded respect.

But amidst the serious conversation, young Aruzhan stood out with her bubbly personality and carefree laughter. Her ample form promised comfort and camaraderie, a rare warmth in the cold expanse of space.

“Zenoba,” Lady Gerel called out, her voice gentle yet commanding in the cool chamber. “You’ve returned. Will you stay and have tea with us?”

“Thank you,” said Zenoba. As she settled among the women, her thoughts drifted to the vast unknown beyond the ship’s hull and her crucial role in the unfolding power play.

“Your insights are truly invaluable, Lady Khulan,” Zenoba acknowledged, mindful of the woman’s influential position.

“Only because they are actually listened to, my lady,” Khulan quipped back, her eyes sharp as a knife.

Meanwhile, Aruzhan flitted around the room, her infectious laughter bursting through the air like bubbles in champagne. She slyly winked at Zenoba, her mischievous nature barely hidden under layers of charm and chiffon.

“Want something to eat, cousin?” Aruzhan teased with a playful smirk, already knowing the answer.

“Not now,” Zenoba replied with a small smile tugging at her lips.

Retreating to her private chamber within the women’s quarters, Zenoba allowed herself a moment to breathe. As the weeks stretched into an endless tapestry of stars and silence, she felt the tendrils of uncertainty begin to coil around her heart. Yet she could not—would not—let them take hold.

Her reflection, a tall, thin woman with black hair and striking eyes, stared back at her—a queen in a game of thrones, a player in the grand chessboard of the galaxy. And as the Falconstar hurtled toward their destiny, Zenoba Valdamar braced herself against the unknown machinations of fate, her mind ever plotting, ever poised for the next move in the high-stakes dance of power.

Zenoba

The voyage to the secret clan holdings took more than a standard month. Compared to their first voyage, it was largely uneventful. Zenoba passed most of the time in the women’s quarters, staying with Sonya—now Gulchen—in the master suite. Khasan came to her almost every sleep cycle, and their intimate conversations lasted long into the nightshift. Never before in her previous life on Graznav Station had Zenoba felt so totally at home.

At last, they arrived at the remote and uninhabited star system. Zenoba joined Khasan on the bridge, assuming her position once again as Queen of the Falconstar and Lady in Command.

“Ah, Lady Zenoba,” said Khasan cheerily, rising to greet her. “So good of you to join us. Please, take a seat.”

He gestured to the seat where Gavril usually sat. Zenoba gave him a puzzled look.

“But your lieutenant—”

“Is attending to other duties, as are several of our other officers. Please, make yourself comfortable.”

It was true: compared to the start of their voyage, the bridge was mostly empty. And from Gavril’s seat just behind the command chair, Zenoba had as good a view of their approach almost as Lord Khasan.

“Copy that,” said Shilugei, transmitting the security codes. “We are cleared to approach.”

The silence of the void wrapped around the shuttle like a shroud as it glided toward the farm ships, vast structures floating amidst the starlit expanse. Zenoba watched through the view port, her gaze fixed on the behemoths that grew larger with each passing moment. 

“Remarkable,” she murmured, her voice a whisper lost in the hum of the shuttle’s engines.

“Indeed, my lady,” Khasan replied. “These vessels are more than mere food sources; they are the lifeblood of our clan, symbolizing our self-sufficiency, our resilience.”

Zenoba nodded, though her attention was drawn not to the implications of power but the ingenuity of survival. She thought of the delicate balance between dependence and autonomy, where each member of Clan Valdamar found their place within the grand tapestry of space.

The shuttle docked with a gentle shudder, and the doors hissed open, beckoning them into the belly of the ship. 

“Come,” said Khasan, rising to his feet. “Let us go.”

They stepped out into the hall, where Gavril was already waiting with an honor guard to escort them. Zenoba put a hand on Khasan’s arm.

“Should I bring Mistress Gulchen along?”

“Of course,” said Khasan, still in good spirits. “Your maidservant is welcome to join us. We will wait.”

Zenoba used her wrist console to summon Gulchen, who came quickly, dressed in her everyday white robes. Though she’d seen them on her many times before, Zenoba could not help but notice how they hugged her supple form.

Khasan led them through the airlock, his commanding presence filling the dimly lit corridors of the farm ship. Mistress Gulchin followed behind, her presence a shadow of reluctance that flickered at the edge of Zenoba’s awareness. As they stepped onto the ship, Gavril took point, his hand resting near the hilt of his sidearm, eyes scanning for threats in a place where danger seemed an alien concept.

“These ships are where most of the women of the clan reside,” Khasan explained. “But as Lady in Command, your place is ever with us on the Falconstar, Lady Zenoba.”

As they entered the hydroponic bay, an endless sea of green greeted them beneath artificial light. Rows upon rows of plants swayed gently in the recycled breeze, from leafy greens to robust stalks of grain-producing crops. The air was thick with humidity and the scent of earth, a welcome change from the sterile atmosphere of the Falconstar. Zenoba couldn’t resist touching a leaf, marveling at the thrum of life beneath her fingertips. It was a strange and wondrous sight to see such growth flourishing in the cold void of space.

“Each section is climate-controlled, optimized for specific crops,” Khasan explained, leading them down the narrow walkways between the plant beds. “We can feed our entire fleet without relying on planetary harvests.”

“Impressive, lord,” Zenoba admitted, her analytical mind cataloging every detail, pondering the implications of such autonomy.

Khasan’s pride was palpable as he introduced her to the crew—sturdy men and women whose hands were calloused from honest labor. Their faces lit up with reverence for their lord and lady, the loyalty in their eyes untainted. As Zenoba observed the people of the clan bustling about their daily tasks, she couldn’t help but feel a surge of respect for their essential role in the hierarchy of the clan.

“Your vision sustains us all, my Lord,” one of the crew members said, bowing deeply before Khasan, who received the compliment with a gracious nod.

Zenoba noticed Gulchen trailing behind her, her normally unreadable expression betraying hints of inner turmoil. Zenoba’s analytical mind immediately began to consider. A part of her wanted to reach out to Gulchen and bridge the growing gulf between them, but another part was hesitant, knowing that doing so would expose both of their vulnerabilities.

“Come, let me show you the aquaponics,” Khasan said, leading them further into the vessel.

They descended to a lower level, the sound of running water growing louder with each step. Here, tanks teemed with fish, their silver scales flashing in the artificial light as they swam through the clear depths. Above the tanks, more plants grew, their roots dangling into the water, creating a symbiotic cycle of life that left Zenoba momentarily awestruck.

“Everything in balance,” Khasan murmured, echoing Zenoba’s thoughts. “A closed ecosystem that sustains us as we journey through the cosmos.”

“Amazing,” Zenoba breathed out, allowing herself a rare moment of awe. To think that such complexity could thrive here, in the cold embrace of the cosmos, stirred something within her—a sense of pride in what the Hameji had accomplished, a burgeoning connection to Khasan’s vision that she hadn’t expected to feel.

“Is everything to your satisfaction, my wife?” Khasan asked, his hand finding the small of her back.

“More than satisfactory, lord,” Zenoba replied, her voice steady, her emotions carefully veiled. The farm ship impressed her, yes, but it was the machinations of her own heart that remained an enigma, distant and uncharted as the stars themselves.

“Then come, let us travel to the mines.”

The shuttle’s engines hummed with a steady thrum as it departed from the farm ship, leaving behind the vibrant greenery that clung to life amidst the void. Zenoba sat, her posture poised and regal, within the confines of the vessel’s interior, yet her mind was adrift in the vast expanse they traversed. The stars blurred together in streaks of white light, reminding her of the passage of time and how far they had come.

Khasan sat beside her, his own gaze fixed on the endless expanse outside. He was silent for a few moments before he turned to her with a small smile.

“I’m pleased that you took such an interest in our farm ship,” he said. “It’s truly a wonder of technology and innovation.”

Zenoba nodded, her thoughts still muddled with conflicting emotions. She had always been fascinated by humanity’s ability to adapt and survive in any situation, but now she saw it in a new light—a testament to Hameji determination and resilience.

Khasan reached out and took her hand, his warm touch grounding her in reality. “There is much to discuss about our next destination,” he said gravely. “We are headed towards one of our mining outposts—an important key resource for all of our clan operations.”

Zenoba listened intently as Khasan explained their mining operations and how they extracted precious minerals from nearby asteroids. He also spoke about their military strategies that allowed them to protect their resources from potential rival clans.

“Our mines are the sinew and bone of the Valdamar clan, providing us with the raw materials to forge our destiny.” He gestured to the panoramic viewport as distant points of light grew clearer, revealing the stark geometry of industrial might.

Zenoba’s curiosity was piqued and she listened intently as he continued. “We have established a network of drones, guided by the hands of our most trusted engineers. It’s more efficient this way—less waste, less cost, greater speed.”

“Remarkable,” she whispered, her fingers tracing the cold glass of the observation window. The vastness of space lay beyond.

“The Hameji do not merely survive in space,” Khasan interjected, a note of pride evident in his voice, “we thrive. We bend the desolate expanse to our will.”

Fascinated by their methods, Zenoba pressed on. “And how do you ensure loyalty among the miners? It must be grueling work.”

“Through honor, Lady Zenoba,” Khasan replied confidently. “Each miner is a warrior in their own right. Their battlefield is here, among the asteroids that provide us with the precious ore for our ships.”

As the shuttle docked with the mine’s main hangar, the party disembarked into the cavernous interior. Zenoba followed Khasan, her tall figure moving gracefully in the low gravity, her shoulder-length black hair floating slightly around her head.

“Everything here is recycled, reused,” Khasan explained, leading her past a group of workers extracting precious metals from the mine’s walls. “We mine not only for materials but also for the water locked within these rocks.”

“Remarkable,” Zenoba murmured. Her analytical mind raced through the implications of each piece of technology, each process she witnessed. She saw the interconnectedness of it all—the farms, the mines, the people—and understood how precariously it balanced on the edge of the great galactic expanse.

“Such unity,” she mused aloud. “It’s more than just survival. You’ve built a culture that embraces the stars as its home. You’re not just surviving; you’ve created something… enduring.”

“Endurance is the key to victory,” Khasan said with a nod. “Everything you see here,” Khasan said, pausing to meet her gaze, “it’s all for our future—for the ascendency of the Valdamar clan.”

She nodded, her soul trembling at the raw power of his words. In this frigid void of space, the Hameji had surpassed the restrictions of mere planet-bound civilizations. They were a race forged from steel and will, unbounded by earthly horizons.

Sonya

Sonya stepped back into the shuttle, feeling the hum of the engines vibrating through the cold metal floor. She settled into the seat next to Zlata, avoiding Lord Khasan’s piercing gaze as he took the seat across from them. Fortunately, both he and Zlata seemed content to ignore her, treating her like some sort of harmless pet, just as they had throughout the tour.

The docking clamps disengaged with a distant clang, making Sonya shudder. She gazed out the portside window, watching as the industrial complex covering the face of the asteroid grew smaller and smaller, until it had all but disappeared into the darkness of space.

Beside her, Zlata stood tall and composed, seeming to thrive in this environment. Her eyes reflected the starlight like a predator on alert. During the tour, she had asked pointed and insightful questions, showing her dedication to this new life among the stars – a life that Sonya couldn’t see herself fitting into. The sense of isolation washed over Sonya like a heavy cloak, and she knew that Zlata would never be an ally in her escape.

“Gulchen,” Zlata said later, when they were alone in the dimly lit confines of the women’s quarters. Her voice was softer now, stripped of the authority it held on public display. “I see your sadness. You miss your home.” Zlata’s hand rested on Sonya’s shoulder—a touch meant to soothe, perhaps, but to Sonya, it was a reminder of her shackles.

Sonya’s voice dripped with venom as she whirled around to confront Zlata, her hazel-green eyes ablaze with unbridled hatred. “Don’t you dare call me that,” she hissed through clenched teeth. “I am not your Gulchen.”

Zlata’s stunning eyes softened for a moment, revealing a glimpse of insecurity. “Fine, Sonya. I understand this isn’t the life you wanted.”

“Lies!” Sonya spat out the word like it was poison, her fists clenching at her sides. “You robbed me of any choice, Zlata. You’ve taken everything from me and left me with nothing but pain and resentment.”

Zlata’s voice wobbled as she corrected her servant. She sat on a cushioned throne, draped in luxurious silk robes and surrounded by glittering jewels. Sonya stood before her, arms crossed and eyes blazing with defiance.

“I know it’s not easy for you to be here, so far from your past life,” Zlata continued, her tone softening. “But we must make the best of our new home.”

Sonya scoffed at her mistress, the fire in her eyes intensifying. “In time?” she repeated mockingly. She took a step closer, meeting Zlata’s gaze with her own determined one. “You may wear the mantle of power effortlessly, but you have forgotten what it feels like to be shackled and controlled. My place is not among these stars, and I fear it never will be as long as you remain so consumed with building this…empire.”

“Sonya—Gulchen,” Zlata corrected gently, but firmly, reinforcing the identity imposed upon her. “We cannot change what is. We can only influence what may come.”

Sonya’s heart clenched as Zlata corrected her name, a reminder of the identity that had been imposed upon her. The words “cannot change” echoed in her mind, a constant reminder of her helplessness. She wanted to believe in Zlata’s reassurances, but they felt like empty promises in the face of captivity and bondage.

“Sonya—”

“Please, don’t,” Sonya interjected, stepping back. “Don’t pretend to understand.” She could feel the walls closing in, the ship itself an unyielding cage. And with Zlata’s transformation, any flicker of hope for empathy or aid had vanished.

“Very well,” Zlata said, her voice faltering for a moment before regaining its composure. “If that’s how you wish it.”

As Zlata walked away, Sonya’s fists clenched and her mind raced with conflicting thoughts. She tried to focus on the shuttle gliding towards the Falconstar, but her thoughts kept drifting back to Zlata’s betrayal and the anger simmering within her. As she stared at the cold, metallic walls of the shuttle, she couldn’t help but feel trapped and helpless. But then a spark of determination ignited within her, mirroring the unwavering strength of the spaceship’s hull. She made a silent promise to herself – if Zlata wouldn’t be her savior, then she would save herself, and make Zlata pay for failing her.

Zenoba

Zenoba woke up to a sudden wave of nausea. Clutching her stomach, she stumbled out of bed, her body drenched in sweat. Had they just made an unusually long jump? No, this was a much different kind of sickness from the jump fatigue that she’d grown used to. Whatever the cause, the sensation felt foreign and deeply unsettling.

“Sonya,” she called out weakly, struggling to steady herself against the bulkhead. “I need your help.”

Without a word, Sonya emerged, her features schooled into practiced impassivity. Together, they traversed the labyrinthine passageways to the sickbay, the quiet punctuated only by the occasional murmur of the ship’s crew going about their morning routines.

The sickbay was sterile and humming with the low throb of machinery. Dmitri, the slave doctor, looked up from his console as they entered. His kind eyes met Zenoba’s, a silent acknowledgment passing between healer and patient.

“Doctor,” Zenoba greeted him with a nod, her voice betraying none of the turmoil within.

“Sit, Lady Zenoba,” he said softly, guiding her to the examination table. His hands were gentle yet precise as he conducted the scans, the quiet beeping of the medical equipment filling the room.

As Zenoba lay back on the cold surface, Dmitir scanned her with a handheld device that swept over her body in a soft blue light. The room was silent save for the hum of the scanner and the distant murmurs of the ship.

“Your symptoms are consistent with early pregnancy,” Dmitri announced after a moment, his words cutting through the stillness like a laser through durasteel. “You are carrying Lord Khasan’s child.”

Zenoba received the news without a flicker of reaction, her face an impenetrable mask. But behind her striking eyes, a storm raged silently. The weight of the revelation settled upon her like dust upon abandoned ruins; a life growing inside her, yet her heart felt barren.

“Thank you, Doctor,” she said, her voice even, her face impassive. Yet, beneath the surface, a maelstrom whirled. Was it fear? Hope? Zenoba could not tell. She had always prided herself on her ability to mask her emotions, to remain detached and calculating. But now, as the prospect of motherhood loomed, she found herself adrift in an ocean of uncertainty.

“Would you like to know the gender of your child, Lady Zenoba?” Dmitri asked. “If you would like, a simple DNA scan of the fetus would—”

“No,” Zenoba said quickly. For now, it was enough to know that she was having a child—she didn’t know how she would react to learning whether that child would actually be Khasan’s heir.

“Is there anything else, Lady Zenoba?” the doctor inquired.

“No, thank you,” she said, rising from the bed with a grace that masked her inner turmoil. “That will be all. I will inform Lord Khasan.”

As she walked back to her quarters, Sonya trailing behind, Zenoba’s mind raced. This child, a symbol of her union with Khasan, solidified her position within the Valdamar clan. Yet, amidst the political machinations and the relentless pursuit of power, she sensed a chasm opening within her—a void where emotion should reside.

The news would please Khasan, she thought as she rubbed her belly. But with the joy also came fear, a vulnerability that could be used against her by both friends and enemies. She sat on the edge of the bed, staring out the window as the weight of the situation pressed down on her. Beside her, Sonya fidgeted with a strand of hair, her hazel-green eyes darting with unspoken questions. Zenoba felt the distance between them, knowing that she carried a secret too heavy to share, one that could shatter their fragile bond.

“Sonya,” she called without looking up, needing the familiar presence of someone who, despite everything, was bound to her.

The maidservant glided into the room, her curvaceous silhouette swathed in the modest garb of servitude. Her eyes, usually sparkling with mischief, now betrayed a deep turmoil within her. Zenoba, sitting regally on her cushioned throne, motioned for her to approach.

“Please prepare some tea for me, Sonya,” she commanded, her voice measured and detached. 

“As you wish,” Sonya replied with a quick nod, but her gaze lingered on Zenoba just a moment too long, searching for any hint of the inner turmoil that she knew must be consuming her mistress.

“I have just learned that I am pregnant with Khasan’s child,” Zenoba announced.

Sonya froze, nearly dropping the teacup as she took it from the Samovar. For a moment, her face turned white. But she drew a deep breath and recovered quickly, the only sign of her shock her shaking hands.

“Congratulations, Zlata,” she said softly.

“Lady Zenoba,” Zenoba corrected. “That name is dead to me now.”

Sonya bit her lip and left quickly, leaving Zenoba alone with her thoughts. Drama, drama. Don’t dwell too long on the drama.

In her private chambers, Zenoba sat at the edge of the bed, staring at the reflection of a woman she barely recognized. A queen, a wife, soon to be a mother—and yet, she felt nothing. She was adrift in a sea of expectations and duty, her own desires submerged beneath the tide of her responsibilities.

But emotion or no emotion, her path was set by the life she carried, and she would navigate this new terrain with the same cold precision she applied to all aspects of her life. Even if she felt nothing, she would do everything required of her. It was the Hameji way.

Children of the Starry Sea: Chapter 1 (excerpt)

Here is an excerpt from my forthcoming novel, Children of the Starry Sea. It’s a direct sequel to Star Wanderers and the second book in what is going to be a trilogy. It’s also the longest book I’ve written since I started publishing more than ten years ago.

The rough draft is already finished, and the first revision draft is almost finished. I’m going to do another two revision passes over the next month, one to fix any remaining story issues, and another to trim the word count by about 10%. After that, it’s off to the editor!

Here is the first chapter.

Worry and Bliss

Isaiah

Isaiah snuck carefully through the empty halls of New Jezreel, avoiding the main thoroughfare even though the planetside colony was mostly asleep at this hour. The atrium was still mostly dark, though the dawn was starting to lighten the perpetually overcast sky outside. In less than an hour, the daylights would come on, illuminating the darkened hallways.

He slowed as he reached the turnoff for the colony’s main hangar, then stopped to check the terminal beside the door, glancing nervously over his shoulder. The screen glowed in the darkness, and his fingers moved with urgency as he used his pilot’s clearance to unlock one of the landspeeders. If anyone had been in the colony’s flight control tower, they surely would have cancelled his request almost immediately. But the terminal took his ID at face value and cleared him without any question.

The sound of footsteps in the hallway turned his blood to ice. Even though they were still distant, he hurriedly exited the menu and slipped into the shadows. The screen continued to glow, however, illuminating the hall so brightly it made him cringe. It was glaringly obvious that someone had been using it, and if security happened to pass by, then—

“Boo!” came a young woman’s voice, making him jump.

“Salome!” he whispered fiercely. “Is that you?”

“Of course it’s me, silly! Who else did you think it was?”

He peered down the darkened hallway, but it was empty. There was no one else there but them. He sighed in relief.

“For a second there, I thought you were security.”

She giggled. “That’s hilarious. Did you think I was going to detain you?”

“No, but I’m sure they won’t be happy when they find out what we’ve done.”

“You worry too much. Did you get the landspeeder?”

“Yeah,” he said, palming the door open. As soon as they were on the other side, he palmed it shut, not taking his chances. Thankfully, the terminal screen went dim again just before the doors closed.

Salome was already halfway to the landspeeders, and he had to run to catch up to her. The colony’s main hangar was wide and cavernous, with a domed ceiling almost twenty meters high in the center. The lights were dim and reddish, but he and Salome were certainly showing up on the surveillance cameras, and if anyone from security was watching—

“Which one?” Salome asked, stopping at the row of landspeeders parked along the back wall. These ones were small, barely large enough to fit two people, but the engines were at least as long as Isaiah was tall, and much larger. At one time, their hulls had been bright and sleek, but years of long use had dulled them and given them dozens of dents and dings.

“Uh, just a sec,” said Isaiah, double-checking his wrist console. “There—that one.”

Salome’s eyes lit up as she ran to the one Isaiah had pointed out. Even in the dim lights, she was positively gorgeous. Her short black hair bobbed loosely around her shoulders, and her curvy, athletic figure stole Isaiah’s breath just like the landspeeder had stolen hers. But it was her eager enthusiasm for life that captured his heart more than anything else. Whenever he was around her, he felt that he could die happy if she only gave him a smile. And whenever he wasn’t around her, it felt like there was an emptiness in his life that she fit perfectly.

“Nice!” said Salome, brushing her fingertips admiringly against the hull. “Both engines are in really good shape. You chose a good one.”

Her praise all but melted Isaiah into a puddle. She slipped into the pilot’s seat and gave him a funny look.

“Well, don’t just stand there, silly! Don’t you want to take this bunny for a ride?”

You, or the speeder? his adolescent mind wondered. Blood rushed to his cheeks at the thought, but she didn’t seem to notice as he scrambled to the seat behind her. The glass dome slid into place overhead, and the engines began to rumble as Salome cycled them up.

“Do we have our breathing masks?” he asked as he rummaged through the tiny cockpit compartment that held their supplies.

“Sure,” Salome said absently. Her hands flew deftly across the controls, bringing them to life.

“There,” said Isaiah, finding two masks. “Filters are good, backup oxygen tanks are both full. We’ve only got two emergency flares, though. I don’t know why the last crew didn’t replenish them.”

“It’s all right,” said Salome. “We’re only going out for a joyride, not traversing half the planet.”

“But what about the pirate colony? If they catch us, then—”

“They’re not going to catch us,” she said, laughing dismissively. “They’re on the other side of the world, and besides, your dad has got eyes on them from orbit. Stop worrying!”

Isaiah took a deep breath. She was probably right—no, she was almost certainly right—but still, that “almost” held the potential for a whole world of hurt. The pirate colony had cut off communications nearly eighteen months ago, and no one knew exactly what they were up to, though thankfully, they didn’t have ground-to-orbit capabilities. Yet.

The first settlers had defeated and exiled the pirates to the wilderness just before Isaiah had been born, but his father, the station master of the colony’s main orbital, had always believed that they could come back at any moment. He watched them vigilantly from Zarmina Station, using the spy satellites they’d obtained from the Outworld Joint Defense Fleet.

But Salome clearly wasn’t worried—and besides, it was all out of their hands anyway. Let the administrators worry about the pirates. Right now, he was sharing a cozy cockpit with the most beautiful girl in a dozen parsecs, perhaps even the whole galaxy, and she was happy to have him there. How could life possibly get any better than that?

The engines rumbled, and the hoverjets lifted the speeder off the floor. Isaiah hastily scrolled through menus until he found the command to open the hangar airlock. He authorized it with his pilot’s ID, and the giant doors slid slowly open, like the vertical maw of an enormous beast. Salome gently brought them into the airlock, stopping where a large painted square marked the temporary parking area for incoming and outgoing craft. The massive doors closed slowly behind them.

“Here goes nothing!” Salome said excitedly as the outside doors cracked open. The overcast sky was just starting to turn blue-gray with the morning light, and the jungle trees stood out starkly in silhouette. She revved the engine impatiently, and Isaiah fought back the urge to tell her to wait until the doors were fully open.

As soon as they were, she whooped and gunned the engines, and the speeder leaped forward like a wild animal escaping its cage. Isaiah’s butt clenched as they cleared the partially opened doors with barely a meter to spare on either side. Then they nosed up over the treetops, and New Jezreel was suddenly behind them, with nothing but scattered settlements and wilderness up ahead.

“Yes!” said Salome, laughing as they sent ripples over the leafy jungle canopy like waves in their wake. They were a little too low for Isaiah’s comfort, but he put that out of his mind.

“What’s the plan?” he asked. “Where are we going?”

“Where do you want to go?” she asked back.

He took a deep breath. Somewhere we can talk, he thought but did not say. Joyriding was fun and all, but he didn’t want to spend all of his short time with her doing that.

“Up the canyon,” he said, pointing to the cliffs that rose sharply from the jungle about a dozen kilometers away.

“You got it!” she said, then whooped again as she accelerated hard enough to throw him against his seat. He took a deep breath before forcing himself to let go of his apprehensions—and not just the ones about the ride.

Salome

There was nothing Salome loved quite so much as the roar of a powerful engine behind her and a wide open world beckoning up ahead. Isaiah had opted for the canyon, and it was a good choice. She’d only been up there twice, and one of those times had been in a slow-moving zeppelin, so it didn’t really count.

“Hold on tight!” she said as the jungle gave way to the cliffs and the rocky gullies. She followed the nearly vertical rock face until it flattened out just before the river. Using one hand to flare the speeder’s airbrakes, she rolled hard to the right and used the sudden wind resistance to pitch the nose in the direction she wanted to turn. Her vision darkened as the engines checked her momentum, nearly making her black out.

“Look out!” Isaiah screamed. She’d underestimated the rate of their sudden altitude drop, and the broad surface of the river was rushing up toward them like a shimmering blacktop. She leveled off just as they struck the surface, and the force of the impact on the landspeeder’s flat underbelly was enough to knock the wind out of her lungs.

The hoverjets squealed in protest as the spray of water splashed across the domed cockpit window, and for a brief, heart-stopping moment, she feared that she’d submerged them. Thankfully, though, the speeder leaped back up into the air, water streaming in rivulets across the hull as they sped down the river, riding it like a road.

A heady rush of adrenaline made Salome laugh. These were the moments she lived for—the liberating thrills that she could never quite get under the manmade ceilings and artificial lights of New Jezreel.

“Holy crap, Salome!” Isaiah yelled. “Did you just wreck the speeder?”

“She’s still flying, isn’t she?”

“Yeah, but if any of the jets got flooded, we could have a—”

“They’re fine,” Salome insisted, though she checked the screen on her left just to be sure. The front right hoverjet had a minor warning indicator, but it didn’t sound too bad. From her work in the colony’s mechanic shop, she could tell if an engine was having problems almost before the diagnostics had finished running. She hadn’t flown them much outside of the holovid simulations, but she knew them inside and out, and could build one from scratch if she had to.

When Isaiah had asked her if she wanted to take one out for a spin, it was all that she could do in that moment not to throw her arms around him and squee. Not that she had any particular feelings for him—they’d been friends ever since childhood, mostly because of how close their parents were, and while things had changed after his family had moved up to Zarmina Station, they hadn’t changed like that. No, Isaiah was just a very good friend—especially with how he’d helped her take this landspeeder out for a ride. That was really awesome of him.

The speeder kicked up a massive spray of water as they skimmed over the mostly still surface. As they turned around a bend, Salome saw whitecaps up ahead, so she raised their altitude a couple of meters and gripped the flight controls with both hands.

“Waterfall up ahead!” said Isaiah, pointing to it over her shoulder.

“I see it,” said Salome. “Hang on!”

She skirted a couple of large boulders and drove straight toward the churning wall of water. At the last moment, she nosed up hard and gripped the throttle with one hand. Once they were vertical, she killed it. The speeder didn’t have any wings, so it went into a wonderfully thrilling backflip, its forward momentum carrying them up over the edge of the falls. This time, Salome timed the maneuver perfectly—all those hundreds of hours on the holovid simulators had really paid off. When the speeder righted itself and the hoverjets re-engaged, they blasted over the water without touching the surface. She throttled up the engines and whooped.

“I think I’m going to be sick,” Isaiah moaned.

“You’ll be fine,” Salome told him, though she eased up on the altitude controls to give them a bit more clearance. Hopefully that would make their ride a bit smoother. As much fun as she was having right now, it wouldn’t be worth it if she made Isaiah miserable.

Up ahead, the river narrowed into a sharp bend, and the slope on either side grew higher and steeper. In the early morning light, it was darker in the narrow defile, but the overcast sky cast enough diffuse light to fly by—barely. On the edge of her vision, a couple of floating algae pads drifted lazily above the jungle like miniature zeppelins. She’d have to keep an eye out for those in the canyon.

The jungle by the river was still as thick as down in the valley, but as the rapids increased, the number of large rocks and boulders did as well. Out of the corner of her eye, she even saw places where rock falls from the mountains had ripped out the old growth not too long ago. The slopes were mostly scree, but they soon rose to jagged, towering cliffs on either side. Salome considered leaving the river to head up one of the gullies and see how long the speeder could find purchase on those slopes, but for Isaiah’s sake she decided against it.

Then they hit the rapids. The river narrowed dramatically, the water churning over the countless boulders and smashed tree trunks as it had at the base of the waterfall. It took all of Salome’s concentration to keep from crashing, as the walls of both cliff and jungle closed in on either side. The shadows were deeper than she’d expected, there was no space to turn around.

The next several minutes passed in mere moments as every particle of her attention was focused on getting them through without killing them both in a spectacular crash. There was a rhythm to it that caught her in a trance—one that she hoped would never end.

Intuitively, she sensed that they were coming to another wall. She nosed up sharply before the waterfall came into view, and without thinking, she went into a barrel roll. Just before they stalled, almost a hundred meters above the canyon floor, she glimpsed a floating algae pad out the corner of her eye and brought the hoverjets around to push off of it. The maneuver gave her just enough forward momentum to clear the edge of the waterfall, kicking up a frightening amount of spray in the process. But the hoverjets held, the engines came to life again, and they blasted out from the waterfall’s edge over a wide mountain lake.

Salome became aware of someone screaming, and realized that it was her. She throttled down and flared the airbrakes, bringing the speeder to a gentle crawl.

“That was incredible!” she said, grinning from ear to ear as she turned around to see how Isaiah was doing.

“Yeah,” he said, his face pale and his arms shaking.

The cliffs weren’t quite so high this far up into the mountains, and the lake was wide and flat enough that it reflected the cloudy sky like a mirror. The sight all around them was incredible. A few lone trees were scattered here and there, but the beaches were mostly gravel and scree, rising sharply to the jagged ridge that surrounded them. On one side, a large cloud was spilling over onto the water, or perhaps rising off of it—it was difficult to tell. Then, through a sudden break in the clouds, the early morning sun shone in all its brilliant glory.

“Whoa,” said Salome, captivated by the natural beauty of the scene. A gaggle of enormous raptor-beasts chose that moment to take off from the farther shore, briefly eclipsing the sun before disappearing into another cloudbank.

“We’re—we’re alive,” said Isaiah, as if realizing it for the first time in his life. Salome, too, felt a strange new awareness sweep over her.

“You only live once,” she told him, laughing. “Come on. Where do you want to go next?”

He paused for a moment. Then, in a voice that was almost shy, he asked: “Can we stop and just talk for a while?”

“Sure.”

She nosed the speeder over to where an algae pad had deflated, over by the water’s edge. It provided a nice platform to park the speeder, as well as a soft place to climb out and maybe stretch their legs.

“Got your mask?” she asked as the speeder powered down.

“Uh, yeah, but—”

She cracked open the cockpit seal with one hand while holding her mask to her mouth with the other. Isaiah yelped in surprise as he scrambled to put his mask on. The air that flooded in was thick, humid, and surprisingly warm, though not quite as heavy as down in the valley. As the glass slid open, Salome finished strapping on her mask and climbed out.

The atmosphere was thick with oxygen—almost too much, really—but the carbon dioxide was even more concentrated, and needed to be scrubbed by the masks. There were other poisonous gases too, though this was more of a problem in the valleys than it was in the mountains. Thankfully, a halfway-decent filtration system was all they needed to breathe the native air.

Salome jumped down to the soft algae below and stretched, arcing her back. Isaiah soon jumped down next to her.

“It sure is beautiful up here, isn’t it?”

“Yeah,” she said, walking over to the edge of the water. She found a nice place and sat down with her legs stretched out. Isaiah hesitated, so she motioned for him to join her.

Isaiah

Isaiah’s knees still shook from the crazy joyride. He was grateful that they were sitting on the soft, deflated algae pad, though the masks were an annoying obstacle. He wanted to see Salome’s face, not just her eyes, though of course those were gorgeous. More than that, though, he wanted her to see his face—to really and truly be able to listen to what he had to tell her. He sighed.

“My dad’s been bringing up the whole star wandering thing,” he began. “Keeps telling me that I’m almost as old as he was when he became a star wanderer.”

“Ah,” Salome said knowingly. “So that’s what’s been on your mind.”

Not quite, he wanted to say. But if Salome rejected him, what would he do then? His father would expect him to leave on the Ariadne, never to return. That was the time-honored tradition of the Outworlds, and his father was a staunch traditionalist. But even if they did become a couple, would his father accept that as a reason to let him stay?

“It’s not that I’m scared of leaving,” he lied—or rather, stretched the truth. “Just… leaving forever? Never coming back? Doesn’t that seem a bit… extreme?”

“Yeah,” said Salome, leaning back on her hands with her slender legs crossed. “It’s a stupid tradition. Times are changing. In another generation or two, the Outworlds won’t even need star wanderers to keep from becoming too isolated.”

“I can understand why my father holds on so tightly to the old ways. If he hadn’t left home, he would have never my mother. That’s probably why he wants me to become a star wanderer.”

“But is that really what you want?” Salome asked.

Their eyes met, and Isaiah’s heart all but stopped. Was she asking him to stay for her? Perhaps, underneath that mask, she was waiting for him to confess that he didn’t want to leave her, that she was all he ever—

But then, she shrugged and glanced back out over the lake again. His shoulders slumped.

“Not really, no,” he told her honestly. “There’s just—there’s so much here to stay for. And it’s not like inbreeding is a problem. Right?”

“Of course not,” Salome said absently. The way she sat, with her back arched and her shoulders pulled back, really brought out all of her feminine curves. He always felt a little embarrassed when his thoughts started sliding in that direction, but at the same time, he couldn’t help but feel drawn to her.

It was amazing how much she’d changed since his family had moved up to Zarmina Station. Before, she was still just a childhood playmate that he got to visit whenever their mothers got together, which was almost every day. Now, he only got to see her whenever his work as a shuttle pilot brought him planetside, but those frequent absences had made her transformation over the last couple of years all the more incredible. She was no longer the precocious little girl who used to chase him around the underground parks and gardens, but a stunning young woman who had almost reached her prime.

“Have you ever thought about leaving for the stars?” he asked, surprising them both.

She gave him a funny look. “You mean, become a female star wanderer?”

“Or some other kind of starfarer,” he added quickly. “There are lots of people who travel the stars who aren’t just following the old ways.”

“Not in the Far Outworlds—at least, not yet. Out here, you’re either a star wanderer or a member of the Outworld Joint Defense Fleet—and I sure as hell am not leaving home for that.

“So what about being a female star wanderer, then?”

She thought about it for a moment, then shrugged. “I don’t know. It sounds like it would get kind of lonely.”

Not if we left together, Isaiah thought, his heart pounding eagerly.

“Still,” she added, “it would be an adventure. Perhaps even the adventure of the lifetime. My dad doesn’t talk about his star wandering days much, but I can tell sometimes that he misses it.”

“Yeah,” said Isaiah. “My dad too.”

“Do you ever wonder if you’ve got a brother or sister out there?”

He frowned. “What do you mean?”

“Like, if your dad had a starchild or two before he settled down with your mom. Star wanderers do that sometimes, you know.”

“Not my dad.”

“Are you sure?”

Hot blood rushed to Isaiah’s cheeks. Why were they even talking about this? In just a few hours, he’d be back up in orbit, facing his father, with Salome down on New Jezreel where he wouldn’t be able to talk with her for a while—not in person, anyway.

“I can’t imagine him doing something like that. It’s certainly not the kind of thing that I would do.”

“Why not?”

“Are you kidding? You think I’d really, uh, knock a girl up and, um…”

“Stars, Isaiah—are you blushing?”

She laughed, making him blush even deeper. Even so, her laugh wasn’t hurtful or unkind.

“Sorry,” she said, blushing a little herself. “I guess I never thought we’d be talking about this kind of thing.”

“Do you think your dad ever had a starchild?”

“Honestly, it wouldn’t surprise me. And if I became a starfarer, I might get the chance to meet them. After all, it’s a small universe outside of the Coreward Stars.”

They sat in silence for several moments. A thick cloud rolled over the lake, obscuring the highest peaks. Isaiah had the sensation that the algae pad was floating high up in the sky, drifting away with them to wherever the wind would carry it.

“At least it’s not like you have to leave tomorrow,” said Salome. “Some star wanderers don’t leave until they’re well into their twenties.”

“Try telling that to my father,” he muttered.

She gave him a funny look again. “Well, why don’t you?”

“Are you kidding?”

“No, I’m not.”

Isaiah shook his head. “You don’t understand. All my life, this thing has been hanging over my head. When I was born, it was already decided that I would leave home and become a star wanderer, just like my father.”

“That’s stupid. In another generation, those traditions are going to be dead anyway, so why should you be forced to keep them?”

“So you want me to stay?” he asked, his breath catching in his throat.

“If that’s what you want,” she said, looking back out over the water. “It’s your life, after all. You’re the one who has to decide what’s right for you.”

And what about us? he thought but did not say. He wasn’t sure he was ready to ask about that yet.

“I don’t know,” he said uncertainly. “My father would be so disappointed in me.”

“So what?”

He frowned. “Don’t you care what your parents think of you?”

“Well, yes, but—oh, I don’t know! Why do these traditions have to be so hard? It’s always the firstborn son—why not take volunteers instead, or only send out people who actually want to go?”

“Would you go in my place if you could?”

“Yes!” she answered immediately. “I mean, probably. Sure. Why not?”

Does that mean you would you go with me, too?

Of course, he didn’t actually ask her, since the very thought was absurd. The Ariadne was built for a crew of exactly one, and besides, Salome didn’t have the neural implants necessary to plug into the dream simulators. That had been a point of controversy among the first settlers, with some, like Isaiah’s parents, opting to implant all of their children, while others, like Mariya’s parents, opting their children out of it. In the cramped quarters of a starship like the Ariadne, the simulations were absolutely necessary to maintain your mental health. But on a habitable world like Zarmina, the dream worlds were a luxury, not a necessity.

Still, Isaiah’s parents had made some very long voyages together on the Ariadne, so it wasn’t impossible to take another person along. And so long as they both had each other, how much did it really matter that Salome didn’t have the implants and couldn’t plug into the simulations? Even with the implants, his father had struggled with loneliness until he’d met his mother. If wandering the stars together had worked so well for them, then perhaps…

No, he told himself, snapping back to the present. The last thing he needed was to lose himself in a daydream about his crush when Salome was right here.

“All right,” he said aloud. “I’ll talk with my father about it.”

“Good!” said Salome, smiling at him—though unfortunately, all he could see of her smile was in her eyes. Still, it was more than enough to take his breath away.

Should I ask her? he wondered. It sounds almost like she wants me to stay. And if that’s true…

“Isaiah? Is something wrong?”

He took a deep breath. “Salome—if I did stay, would you…”

“Would I what?” she asked curiously as his voice trailed off.

“Never mind,” he said quickly, deciding not to press the issue. “Let’s get back to New Jezreel before they think we’ve stolen this thing.”

She laughed as she climbed up the ladder back into the cockpit. “You worry too much, Isaiah!”

Perhaps I do, he thought cheerfully.

Salome

As the speeder lifted off, sending ripples across the mirror-like surface of the lake, Salome couldn’t help but feel that her friendship with Isaiah had changed in some significant but unknown way. That bothered her more than she cared to admit. She’d been looking forward to the ride back down the canyon, but now there was too much on her mind to fully enjoy it.

Still, she was glad that Isaiah trusted her enough to spill his guts to her like that. He really was a great friend—not at all like some of the other boys, who only seemed to want one thing from her. As if she would put herself out so easily. No, she was much choosier than that, which probably meant that she was going to end up with a star wanderer, since none of the other boys in the colony were all that impressive.

But right now, she didn’t care about any of that. She was too young to think about settling down and starting a family of her own. Besides, there were so many other things she wanted to do with her life, like fly across the planet on a landspeeder, or parachute jump from space, or build her own balloon house and circumnavigate the globe in that. Her dreams might sound crazy to some, but her father had once had dreams even crazier than her own, and if he’d never followed them, he never would have met her mother or come to Zarmina. Besides, what did she care if other people thought she was crazy?

She brought the speeder out over the water, tracing a wide arc back toward the outlet that led to the waterfall. Instead of following the river, however, she climbed over the rocks to the ridgeline that circled the lake. The clouds had briefly dissipated, at least on this part of the ridge, giving them a spectacular view of the mountains that sourrounded New Jezreel and the nearby settlements. The sky was still overcast, but the air itself was clear enough that they could see all the way out to the vast, world-encircling ocean more than fifty kilometers away.

“Wow,” said Isaiah. “You can see everything from here!”

That’s not even close to true, Salome thought silently. As incredible as the view was from here, it was only a tiny fraction of Zarmina’s grandeur—and an even smaller fraction of the Outworlds. Even if she lived a hundred lifetimes, she would never be able to see it all.

Could she become a star wanderer? The idea was so crazy that it made even her craziest dreams seem small by comparison. And yet, when she’d told Isaiah that she would go in his place if she could, she hadn’t been lying. A part of her even envied him for the chance to be a star wanderer and to see other worlds.

She nudged the flight stick, sending the speeder down the slope at a shallow angle. The jungle canopy was thick enough for the hoverjets to find purchase, as long as they kept to the more thickly forested parts. For Isaiah’s sake, she would take them down at a much more relaxing pace, enjoying the thrill of the view rather than the thrill of the ride.

“Hey,” said Isaiah from the seat behind her. “What was that?”

“What was what?” she asked, not bothering to look.

“That small break in the trees we just passed. It looked like there was smoke coming up through it—like from a gas-powered generator or something.”

“A generator?”

“Yeah. You think someone might be camping up here? We’re about a dozen klicks out from the outlying settlements, but science and exploration parties still come out this way, right?”

Salome laughed and shook her head. “Don’t be silly, Isaiah. Those teams don’t use gas-powered generators.”

“But the pirates do. Do you think—”

“No,” she said firmly, still piloting the speeder down the slope at a decent clip. “What you saw was probably just a cloud whisp. The pirates aren’t even on this continent, let alone this jungle. Let it go.”

“But—”

“I said, let it go,” she told him, then sighed. Whatever else was true, Isaiah always worried too much.

Rethinking some things

So I had an extremely vivid dream last Friday night where I got cancer and learned that I had only a month to live. Among other things, I found myself asking: “What am I going to do about my writing career? Who is going to finish all these books? Are they going to fade into obscurity, or will someone promote them so that my family will benefit from them after I’m gone?”

The whole thing made me feel like the race was suddenly over, and I hadn’t finished it, but had to hand off the baton to someone else who would. So instead of spending that final month of my life writing, I would have to spend it outlining things in such a way that the person who carried it all after me would be able to do it right.

(And then, hilariously, when I told my friend and cowriter Scott Bascom that I had terminal cancer, his response was: “So what? Get back to writing.” And when I told him IRL about that dream, his reaction was: “Well, was I wrong?”)

Obviously, it was an incredibly sobering and emotional dream, for reasons that had nothing to do with my writing. But it also got me to thinking about some things I’ve taken for granted about my writing process, and how I ought to change them or at least experiment with other ways of doing things.

For example, for the last fifteen years—really, since I started writing professionally—I’ve just sort of assumed that I would 1. work on one novel WIP at a time, and 2. write that novel sequentially from start to finish, rather than hopping around.

In the early years, I experimented with doing things differently and decided that I just wasn’t wired that way. But that was also when I thought I was a 100% discovery writer and didn’t have any sort of outlining process. Basically, I tried to keep the whole novel in my head, a nearly impossible task even for a veteran writer.

Now, I have a much more rigorous outlining process that divides each novel WIP into chapters and scenes, so that instead of trying to keep an entire novel in my head, I can eat the elephant one small bite at a time. So I’ve actually got the infrastructure in place right now to experiment with those things, in a way that I didn’t before.

Another thing that I’ve always taken for granted is that in order to be a working professional, I need to set strict deadlines for each project and schedule those deadlines at least a year in advance. Never mind that I have never kept an original deadline that I’ve made for a project, or kept to those schedules. Instead of finding a better way, however, those deadlines and schedules always just keep getting pushed back.

I’ve also been trying to find a way to write a novel all the way through from start to finish, without getting stuck in the middle and feeling like I need to put it aside for a while (on the “back burner,” as I used to say). In fact, that was one of the main reasons why I developed my outlining process in the first place. But even with a well-developed outline that still has some flexibility to adapt to a changing story, I still can’t write a novel straight through without having to take a break.

Another thing I’ve always failed at is hitting my daily word count goals consistently. Instead, I typically write in starts and fits, especially when I’m in the messy middle of whatever novel WIP I’m working on at the moment. However, I did have some success with those nanowrimo challenges where I worked on short stories—in other words, where I hopped from project to project.

Also, until this year, I could never manage to read very consistently. I’d go through phases where I’d read a lot, followed by long reading droughts where I’d read almost nothing. But then, I discovered some reading hacks that completely changed everything, and now I’m reading between one and two dozen books a month (most of them just the first and last chapters, but about 6-10 of them all the way through).

One of those reading hacks was—wait for it—reading more than a dozen books simultaneously and hopping from book to book. And the thing that made that possible was my reading log, which provides some structure and helps me to see how much I need to read from each book to not just totally drop the ball.

So why don’t I try something similar with my writing? What if, instead of working on one novel WIP at a time, I used these outlines to break them all up into scenes and just skipped around, writing whatever stands out as the most interesting thing to write at the moment? The outlines will help to keep it all straight, so I don’t have to keep an entire novel in my head. And when I inevitably get stuck with one WIP, I don’t have to lay it aside for months on end—instead, I can jump to something else, since I’m already jumping around in the first place.

It sounds kind of crazy, but I’ve found that my ADHD brain actually works better that way, at least when it comes to reading. So why not writing as well? It’s worth a shot, at least. And maybe one of the upsides will be that I won’t have to angst so much about those deadlines. If the focus is on hitting daily word count instead of staying on deadline for my current WIP, then solving the first problem will ultimately solve the second one, once I hit my stride.

So that’s what I’m going to experiment with: hopping from project to project, with a goal of hitting my daily word count goal rather than advancing a single project to an arbitrary deadline.

In order to do that, I need to make some outlines. Here are all of my unfinished novel(ish) WIPs that I haven’t trunked yet:

  • The Sword Bearer (Twelfth Sword Trilogy #2)
  • The Sword Mistress (Twelfth Sword Trilogy #3)
  • Captive of the Falconstar (Falconstar Trilogy #2)
  • Lord of the Faconstar (Falconstar Trilogy #3)
  • Children of the Starry Sea (Outworld Trilogy #2)
  • Untitled (Outworld Trilogy #3)
  • A Brotherhood of Swords (First Sword Trilogy #1)
  • Untitled (First Sword Trilogy #2)
  • Untitled (First Sword Trilogy #3)
  • The Lifewalker Chronicles (standalone)
  • Starship Lachoneus (standalone, may be a collection)
  • The Justice of Zedekiah Wight (collection)
  • The Mercy of Zedekiah Wight (collection)
  • Christopher Columbus, Interstellar Explorer (collection)

Of those, only Children of the Starry Sea and Captive of the Falconstar are fully outlined. So I’ve got a lot of work to do.

Instead of taking time off to outline all of these, however, I’m going to prioritize hitting word count, and work on the outlines on the side, in my voluminous spare time </sarc>. It’ll probably take a while, but I’ll eventually get it done—and that will provide some extra motivation to hit word count each day.

Also, I plan to outline all of them, even the book 3s where book 2 still hasn’t been written. The reason for that is so that I’ll have something to hand off to another writer, in case that crazy dream comes true. I don’t think that it will, but I’m gonna go sometime, so it’s better to get into the habit of doing that now. Besides, it may be helpful to skip ahead to the next book and write a few scenes: give me something to write toward.

TL;DR: I’m going to be doing a lot of experimentation in the next couple of months, skipping around in all of my WIPs instead of focusing on one at a time. It’s going to be crazy, but hopefully in a productive way. And a fun way too.

WIP excerpt: Edenfall

It’s been a while since I did one of these, so I thought I’d share a quick excerpt from my current WIP. This one is from chapter 2, where Khalil Al-Marikh is introduced. He and Estee are the two major viewpoint characters of this book.

This excerpt hasn’t been edited yet, so any typos or other mistakes will be fixed before I publish the book.

Paradise Found

Lieutenant Khalil Ibn Yusef Al-Marikh tapped his earpiece with one hand and held onto his seat with the other as the lightly armored rover bounced on the uneven, rocky ground. His driver, Private Andre Cernovich, seemed to be in a great hurry to arrive without even knowing their destination. That, or Cernovich was simply joyriding.

“Sergeant Peters, this is Khalil. What do you have for me?”

“We’ve found what looks to be the scientists’ expedition compound two klicks out from the space elevator. Our heat sensors show that it’s inhabited. What do you want us to do?”

On the display screen just below the windshield, a green dot blinked to show the sergeant’s. Corporal Cernovich swerved and headed in that direction.

“Are they armed?” Khalil asked.

“Not from what we can tell. Though they may be armed with bows and arrows like those natives who shot at us on the way in.”

Khalil remembered the look on their shuttle pilot’s face as the arrows had clattered against the cockpit window. His men had proceeded through the brush with caution, though thankfully, the natives hadn’t shown up since.

“Hold your ground and wait for us to join you. We’re about five minutes out.”

“Copy, Kali. We’ll establish a perimeter and await your arrival.”

The connection cut out. Khalil focused his attention forward as the roar of the rover’s engines not quite managed to drown out the sound of the native wildlife. The ground, though rocky like his Martian homeworld, was covered in high grass and patches of thick brush. The mountains, which had appeared red from orbit, weren’t yet visible in the pre-dawn twilight.

There was no denying the alienness of this world. From the large double moons and the strange constellations to the thick, musty scent of the air, the inescapable sense of otherness seemed to permeate everything. It set Khalil on edge almost as much as Cernovich’s driving.

The rover hit an unusually large bump, and the resulting bounce nearly flung his gunner, Private Vance, into the air. A chorus of angry profanity was the predictable result.

“Dammit, Andre, you drive worse than my drunk grandma!”

“Stay frosty,” Khalil ordered, scanning the horizon with his heat sensors. The wheels of the rover cut through the grass like a hot knife through butter, and the dry, dusty air blasted Khalil’s face. The landscape was so full of life, it was difficult to tell which targets were harmless and which posed a potential threat.

As they rounded a large rocky outcropping, a swarm of enormous insects took to the air. Vance immediately opened fire. The crack of laser fire mingled with a shout of surprise, which gave way to whoops of victory as dozens of the bugs exploded in a shower of splattered guts.

“Hold your fire,” Khalil ordered. “It’s just the native wildlife.”

“Damn, Kali. Did you see the size of those things?”

“Get used to it, private.”

He glanced up at the trigger-happy teenage marine. Khalil was barely eighteen Terran years himself, which still put him ahead of most of the soldiers under his command. Any older, and the forty years of crysostasis they’d undertook to get here would have significantly reduced his probability of surviving the voyage. Even the main force, which was still on the outskirts of the system, was staffed almost exclusively by teenagers.

Unlike most of them, though, Khalil had never had the luxury of a childhood. His parents were refugees twice over: first from Iraq, and then from Earth. Khalil had never been to his family’s ancestral homeland, but he did have memories of their Syriac Orthodox Church in Los Angelos burning as the Sharia police looked on.

He drew a sharp breath and put such thoughts from his mind, refocusing on the mission.

“There, Cernovich,” he said, pointing to a spot on the map near Sergeant Peters’s current positon. “Drop us off there.”

“Got it.”

A few minutes later, Cernovich brought the rover to a stop behind a small hill. Khalil checked his rifle and dismounted with Vance and Cernovich. Tensions were high, but none of them said a word as they took up positions in the waist-deep grass and prepared to move out. Khalil checked his earpiece.

“Are you there, Lieutenant?”

Sergeant Peters’s voice sounded uncannily loud in Khalil’s ear, now that they’d left the rover. Even the buzzing of the native insects seemed quieter.

“We’re here, Peters. Where are the others?”

“Spread out to the east of the target, with a good overlook position on the right. Hold your position; we’ll come to you.”

“I copy.”

A few moments later, Sergeant Peters materialized from the shadows with Specialists Mikhailov and Martinek. Green and black streaks of face paint covered their faces, making effective camouflage in the high grass. Peters was the taller one.

“What have we got?” Khalil asked quietly.

“It’s the scientists, all right. The dome gives it away. Gilbert and Baier are in position on our right flanks, with Matheson on our left and Ahiga on the far side of the compound.”

“Good work,” Khalil praised his noncom. “Got a vantage point?”

“Right this way.”

He followed his sergeant into the high grass, switching his goggles from infrared to heat signatures. Almost immediately, he could make out the rest of the platoon. They had spread out over a distance of almost a hundred yards, some of them prone, others creeping forward.

Up ahead, on the other side of the rise, he made out structures. Most of them were made of clay and native mud, and still radiated traces of heat from the previous day. A couple of them were dome-shaped, though, and clearly not made from native material.

“How long have you been monitoring this compound?” Khalil asked quietly.

“Only since we arrived. Should we wait until daylight, or move in now?”

Khalil looked skyward, as if to seek out their eyes in orbit. If they’d deployed their probes first instead of sending out the marines, his men might have had advance notice of this compound. Then again, with a mysterious alien structure towering above what appeared to be an otherwise virgin planet, he couldn’t blame his superior officers for wanting to establish a beachhead first. Speed, not stealth, was their chief advantage now.

“Move in,” he said softly. Peters nodded and made a quick cutting motion with his hand. All around them, the marines moved quietly forward as they began to converge on the compound.

A quick update

If life had a crazy-meter, the needle on mine would be somewhere in the yellow green right now and trending toward the red.

Next week, Future Mrs. Vasicek and I will be traveling to Iowa for my nephew’s baptism. It’s going to be a big family affair. Future Mrs. Vasicek has met everyone already, minus some of the nieces and nephews, but this will be the first time that we’re all in the same place together. Should be fun, but also very busy.

Next month, we’re getting married, and that’s a whole other source of craziness right there. Good craziness, but craziness all the same. Things are coming together one thing at a time, but there’s still a bunch of stuff to figure out, and a bunch of unknown unknowns as well. It will probably take at least a couple of months after we’re married before everything fully shakes out.

As far as writing goes, I’m making slow but steady progress on Edenfall, and should still finish it before the wedding. I’ll share more details on that in the email newsletter that I plan to send out this week, but the short version is that I seem to be over the hump and making good progress. That’s where I’m putting most of my energy, so if the blog falls off for a while, don’t worry—I’m still here.

As for the publishing side of things, I’m figuring out how to get all my books out in print, which was something I thought I’d figured out back in January until I learned just how crappy KDP Paperback really is. That said, it’s the best option for the present time, so I’m trying to figure out how to work within those limitations and design covers that their POD printers won’t mangle too badly. Still, it’s going to be a while.

An area where I’ve really dropped the ball is short stories. It’s been months since I wrote the last one, and I need to put a bunch out on submission again too. Also, marketing is an area that I need to do better in. I’m experimenting a bit with AMS ads, but it is so freakishly complicated that I hardly know where to begin.

But reading is an area that I really need to do better. I try to spend an hour or two each night reading, but the last couple of weeks that hasn’t happened at all. My TBR list is about three shelves long right now, and that’s just the print books. That’s definitely an oversight that needs to be rectified.

At the same time, I’m well on my way toward collecting all of the works of David Gemmell, mostly through Paperback Swap. If everyone has a superpower, mine is the ability to acquire books, so Paperback Swap is a really fantastic way to leverage that. The Neverending Story is my favorite book, but David Gemmell is my favorite author, so I definitely want to have all of his books in my personal library.

That’s pretty much it. Still need to figure out cover work for Edenfall. Still need to assemble my first readers and get stuff figured out for that. All of these are good problems, though. Hopefully, I’ll be trading up for better problems in the very near future.

WIP excerpt: Edenfall

I’m a little less than halfway done with Edenfall, so I figure it would be good to share a couple of excerpts with you. If all goes well, it should be out by September.

As a reminder, this is the sequel to my first novel, Genesis Earth, so you may see a couple of familiar characters in this excerpt, which is taken from the first chapter. I’ve already got plans for the third book, and will hopefully complete the trilogy by the end of the year.

Enjoy!


The boulder felt rough and warm under Estee’s bare feet, the hot air dusty and dry. She scrambled up its face, laughing as her little sister struggled to keep up.

“Slow down!” Celeste cried. She lost her footing and began to slip. “Help!”

Estee turned around and dropped to her stomach. A warm breeze tousled her hair as sweat ran down the side of her face. With the grainy sandstone hot against her skin, she caught Celeste and pulled her up.

“You’re okay. Come on!”

Celeste’s face was pale, but she recovered quickly. Together, they stood atop the massive boulder, panting to catch their breath.

“Race you to the next one!”

In an instant, Estee was off, laughing at her sister’s cry of dismay. Thankfully, the next boulder wasn’t so hard. She panted for breath as she scrambled up it with Celeste following closely behind, her terror forgotten as she struggled to keep up. In less than a minute, they had both conquered the rock.

From the top, they had a majestic view of the wide, golden-green savannah and the tabletop mountains all along the horizon.

“It’s hot,” Celeste complained.

“Here,” said Estee, leading her to the northward facing side. “It’s not so bad over here.”

They both laid down with their backs against the slickrock. Estee closed her eyes and breathed deeply, the sun warming her dust-caked skin and drying the beads of sweat on her forehead. It was wonderful.

“Hey, look!”

She opened her eyes and looked where Celeste was pointing, in the direction of the beanstalk. A thin, familiar line rose from the ruins of the ancient ones into the blue sky, disappearing high above the clouds. But the thing that caught Estee’s attention was a point of light, shining like a star where the beanstalk disappeared from view.

“What is it?” she asked.

“I don’t know,” said Celeste. “Look, it’s moving.”

Indeed it was. A light breeze whistled around the boulders as the star drifted soundlessly toward the south. Estee rose to her feet, shielding her eyes with her hand as she traced its curious progress across the sky. Beside her, Celeste stood up as well.

“Is it a falling star?” Celeste asked.

Estee didn’t think so. Falling stars only happened at night, and they usually flickered out in the blink of an eye. Mama liked to study them. She always knew when the best times were to look for them, and sometimes took Estee out with her to see. Mama and Papa both knew a lot about stars, because that was where they’d come from. But Estee had never seen anything like this.

“Is it?” Celeste repeated.

“I told you, I don’t know.”

“Where is going?”

The star grew brighter as it moved closer to the horizon, leaving a bright yellow streak. It was falling to the east, past the village of the little people. Estee thought it would pass out of view beyond the tabletop mountains, but then it turned abruptly north. Falling stars never did that.

“Look!” said Celeste. “It’s making a cloud!”

Sure enough, a thin whispy cloud cut a line in the star’s wake. It reminded Estee of the smoke from a candle. As the star dipped lower, it passed in front of the tabletop mountains and alighted in the nearby foothills. A shiver of excitement ran down Estee’s spine.

“Come on—let’s go!”

“No,” Celeste protested. “It’s too far away.”

“Don’t you want to find it, though?”

“The daylight is fading. We’ll get in trouble.”

Estee groaned, but her sister was right. Besides, Mama wanted them back before dark, and the sun was already starting to get low.

“Race you home. Last one back is a lazy sun-dragon!”

“Hey!” Celeste cried as Estee scampered down the boulder. “Wait for me!”


The high grass tickled Estee’s legs as she ran across the plains. Fine, red dust caked her sweaty skin, but she ran until her lungs burned and her heart pounded, simply for the joy of it. She startled a swarm of leaping locusts grazing nearby, and shrieked in surprise as they leaped high above her, rattling their wings as they sought somewhere more peaceful to graze.

“Celeste! Where are you?”

“Back here!” her sister called.

“Well hurry up!”

By the time they made it back, the beanstalk was already beginning to shimmer in the light of the setting sun. Smoke had started to rise from the adobe oven—that meant Mama was cooking, which meant that they were late.

“Oh, dungheaps,” Estee swore.

Celeste ran up beside her, still out of breath. “What?” she asked—then, noticing the smoke, “Oh.”

“Come on,” said Estee, “let’s go to Papa’s workshop.” If they came in with Papa, then maybe Mama would think they’d been with him the whole time. Papa was always late.

They snuck as quietly as they could out through the hedgerow gate, making a wide circle until they reached Papa’s workshop about fifty yards away. The thatchwork patches in the plasteel dome roof waved in the afternoon breeze.

Five of the little people rose to their feet as Estee and Celeste rounded the corner. Two of them rose swiftly to their feet, brandishing spears, but their leader scolded them and they stepped aside.

“That’s right,” said Estee, holding her palms outstretched. “It’s just us. No need to fear.”

The leader was one of the chiefs of the little people, his rich orange mane bearing jewelry carved from bone. Estee squatted so as not to seem taller than him. In just the last year, she’d grown so much that all but the strongest hunters were shorter than her. She still hadn’t gotten used to that.

The chief stepped forward and put his hand on Estee’s chest in a gesture of peace. She did the same, leaning forward so that they stood cheek to cheek. His furry skin was hard and tough, his mane so long that it tickled her arm. They both took a deep breath together, and the scent of sweat and musk filled her nostrils. She closed her eyes and let it seep into her, until his heartbeat echoed hers.

Opening her eyes, she stepped back to let Celeste greet the chief in like manner while the others stood back. It wasn’t every day that they met the little people like this, but it happened often enough that they both knew what to do.

Satisfied, the little people bowed and let them pass. Estee knocked once, then parted the heavy rug door and stepped inside.

“Papa?” she called. The workshop was brightly lit. Bottles of various chemicals sat on the counter among baskets of dried leaves and flowers. Papa was on the far side of the room, next to the operating table.

“Shh,” said Papa, gesturing for them to stay quiet.

The two girls crept forward to watch. One of the women of the little people sat on the operating table, trembling with fear. She held an infant child on her chest, limp and unconsious.

Papa rinsed off a bloody pair of tweezers in the sink, then returned to the mother and child. “There, there,” he whispered. “Just one more—got it!” From the baby’s leg, he pulled out a black sliver as long as Estee’s pinky finger and dropped it into a nearby bowl.

“Gauze,” he ordered without looking up from his work. Estee rushed to assist him. After carefully cleaning the wound, he applied an herbal dressing before taking the offered gauze and wrapping it around the baby’s leg. “That should help with the infection,” he muttered, then held up one of the smelling salts to the baby’s nose until it began to whimper and cry. The mother clutched her baby to her chest and jumped off the table, rushing out the door to her waiting companions.

“What was that?” asked Celeste.

“Just a splinter,” said Papa. “But they didn’t come to me until the infection had already set in.” He emptied the wash basin and scrubbed his hands with soap and pumice.

“Why?” Estee asked.

“Because they were afraid. They see us as gods, you know. Because we came from the sky.”

“We didn’t,” Celeste said, pointing to Estee and herself.

“But you are our children,” said Papa. “And in their eyes, that makes you gods like us.”

“But why does that make them afraid of us?” Estee asked.

Papa smiled. “Let’s go see what your mama is cooking, shall we?”

“Yeah,” said Celeste. “Let’s go!”

Estee groaned. She hated it when he ended their conversations without giving her a clear answer. Recently, it seemed he did that more and more often. It was especially bad when she asked if Mama would have another baby. Hermes had already seen his first winter.

They followed Papa outside, squinting in the evening sun. Mama was waiting for them at the door of the hut, arms folded across her chest.

“You were out late,” she said, looking Estee in the eye.

“No we weren’t,” Estee lied. “We were with Papa in the workshop.”

“Were you?”

She fidgeted under Mama’s knowing glare. “No,” she admitted. “But we didn’t stay out that long—and we didn’t go far.”

“Yeah,” said Celeste, backing her up.

Papa gave Mama a kiss. “Evening, dear. You look gorgeous.”

“And you look exhausted,” she answered him back. Still, she smiled and ran her fingers through his hair.

Estee rolled her eyes. “Come on! Are we going to eat or what?”

“Hold on, you ravening locust,” said Mama. “We’ll eat soon enough.”

January Recap

It’s been a busy, busy month. I finished a major WIP, published a new bundle, started a new job at the local bookstore, and made a bunch of changes and adjustments behind the scenes. And that’s just my writing life!

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First, I published a new Star Wanderers bundle, containing the complete series. This replaces The Jeremiah Chronicles and Tales of the Far Outworlds, the two previous series bundles that have been up for the last several years.

Eventually, I plan to release Star Wanderers: The Complete Series as an audiobook. That’s one of my big projects for the year. I want to narrate it myself, but I also want to do a damn good job of it, which means I have to learn how to properly record and produce a quality audiobook. That’s going to take time.

I will probably release Star Wanderers: The Complete Series in print too, once I’ve gotten set up for that. As I mentioned in my last post, I’ve pulled all my books from KDP Paperback and plan to go with a different print-on-demand publisher in the not too distant future. But again, that’s going to take time to do properly.

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Second, I finished Gunslinger to Earth! At this point, I’m just waiting to send it out to my editor. Another few weeks, and it will finally be up for preorder!

There’s a lot of stuff happening behind the scenes, too. I’ve sent out more than 60 short story submissions this month, sold one to The New Accelerator, and hope to sell a lot more in the next few months.

I’ve also been rethinking my email newsletter. Until now, I’ve been using it mostly just to share free and 99¢ stories, and tons of links to giveaways. But now, I think that might not be the best way to provide value.

From what I can tell, there are basically two approaches to newsletters: as a vehicle to convert casual readers into fans, or as something much more personal to keep the existing fanbase active and motivated. Obviously, there is some overlap.

With the way I’ve structured things, I lean a lot more to the first approach. However, I do think there’s a lot more that I can share to add value, even to casual readers. Here are some things I’m thinking about sharing:

  • More detailed updates about my writing, current WIPs, and what I’ve been up to.
  • Recommendations of other books that I’ve read and reviewed. To do this properly, I plan to set up a separate book site.
  • Extended descriptions and background information about my books, kind of like what I’ve got in the author’s notes, but with links and detailed by series.
  • Stories from my personal life tha readers might find interesting, such as experiences from working in a bookstore.
  • Better curation of the group promos that I participate in. Until now, my approach has basically been to spam InstaFreebie / Prolific Works, but I think it will be better to participate in a smaller number of group promos that more closely match the kind of books that I write.
  • I still plan to do free and 99¢ book deals, but not necessarily with every email. A book deal is still more of a take (“read my book!”) than a genuine give.

Those are a few of my current ideas. Do you have any of your own? If so, I would very much like to hear about it!

The other big change to my newsletter is that I’m branching out to other sites, like Story Origin, Book Cave, and Bookfunnel, to build my email list. I’ll probably also add preview editions of my books to Prolific Works and put more emphasis on those. It’s something to experiment with.

Still trying to figure out how this blog fits in to everything else. At this point, I’m just doing my best to keep it updated. I have lots of ideas for blog posts, but not a whole lot of time to write them.

There’s a ton of books that I’m reading or want to read, and at some point I really need to revamp my Goodreads profile and get all of my book reviews up there. Probably after I set up the new book site, which will mostly just be a repository of affiliate links for all of the books that I review. I can’t put them up on this site without commingling them with my own books, and I don’t want to do that.

That’s most of the big stuff, at least for now. The main focus for the next couple of months will be growing my email list and figuring out my newsletter. My girlfriend is a programmer, so this weekend we’ll fix up the newsletter template I’ve been using and hopefully make it cleaner. If you have any other ideas for that, please share!

WIP excerpt: Gunslinger to Earth

Chapter One: Back to the Academy

My name is Rex Carter, and I am—or rather, was—from Earth.

I don’t blame you for not believing me. If I hadn’t experienced firsthand the events of my own life, I would be skeptical as well. But I assure you, my story is true. The legends of humanity’s lost homeworld are, for the most part, based in fact. Sol was indeed the cradle of the human race, not Sirius or Aldebaran or any of the nearby stars. The xenologists’ main criticism of Sol, that it lacks a habitable-zone planet, are moot because the world they are looking for—Earth—no longer exists in our plane of reality.

But I’m getting ahead of myself. My name is Rex Carter, and I was born on Earth only a few years after humanity made contact with the galactics. As a young man, I played a key role in…

[SPOILERS REDACTED]

…so I enrolled at Earthfleet Academy a year earlier than most of my peers. If I had to attend school, I was determined to get it over with as quickly as possible so as to get back to the business of having adventures.

Little did I know, adventure would soon find me.

Earth had a single large moon, which we called Luna. It was gray and rocky, with one-sixth the gravity of Earth, and no atmosphere. It was also the location of Earthfleet Academy. After a week-long break to celebrate the Thanksgiving holiday with my parents down on Earth, I grudgingly returned to my studies at the Academy.

“Hey, Rex,” my roommate Frank greeted me as I entered our dorm room.

I dropped my duffel bag at the foot of my bed and flung myself onto the mattress. Earthfleet Academy had its own artificial gravity to compensate for Luna’s, so it felt very much as if I’d never left Earth. The fact that I’d taken a teleporter back contributed greatly to the illusion.

None of which improved my mood.

The dorm room was clean and Spartanly decorated, as you would expect from a military academy. Frank lay back against his pillow with his laptop on his chest, playing some game or chatting online with some friends back on Earth. Quite possibly both.

“Did you miss me?” he asked, giving me a lopsided grin.

I rolled my eyes. “More than I missed this place, that’s for sure.”

“Oh come on. The academy’s not so bad. Besides,” he said, giving me a knowing look, “you-know-who is back from Antarctica.”

Blood rushed to my cheeks. He was talking about Charlotte Bujold, the girl I’d been crushing on since my first semester. I regretted having ever confided that to him.

“She is?” I asked in spite of myself.

“Yeah,” said Frank. “Came back just yesterdayshift. I was going to tell her that you were coming back early too, but—”

“Dammit, Frank. Please tell me you didn’t say that.”

He laughed. “Don’t worry, my friend. I’m just teasing.”

I groaned and rolled over, burying my face in my pillow. I’d navigated my brother-in-law’s starship through space battles and war zones, and traveled far beyond the Gliese colonies of Earthspace, but girls like Charlotte still made my knees go weak and my tongue stammer. What can I say? I was still young.

“To be honest,” Frank continued, “I think Antarctica may have actually thawed the cockles of her cold little heart. She gave me a smile as we passed in the hall this morning. Didn’t say anything, but she smiled. I don’t think she has anything planned before classes start on Monday. If you’re going to ask her out—”

“Shut up.”

“No, I’m serious. Now’s as good a time as any. What are you afraid of?”

“Nothing,” I said sullenly, burying my face even deeper. Of course, that was a lie.

“Dude,” said Frank. He set his laptop aside and turned to face me. “If you like this girl, man up and ask her out. Nothing’s going to happen unless you take the first step.”

I said nothing. This dissuaded him not at all.

“Seriously. You’re not going to get a better chance than now. Once classes start up again, we’ll all be swamped from now until Christmas. She’s sure to leave Sol for the holidays, and—”

“I get the picture,” I said, cutting him off. “What do you suggest?”

Frank sat up, his grin as lopsided as ever, and rubbed his hands together as if he were starting a project. My heart both sank and skipped a beat at the same time.


About half an hour later, not quite sure how I got there, I found myself on a tram to the Earthfleet Academy library. Charlotte’s roommates had told me she was probably there when I’d checked at her dorm. They’d asked if I wanted to leave a message, but I’d blushed, mumbled something incomprehensible, and gotten out of there as fast as if one of them had thrown a live grenade.

The main campus of Earthfleet Academy sprawled out leisurely across the mare, or lunar plain. Since it was cheaper to maintain a lot of small but interconnected artificial gravity fields than to put everything under one giant dome, all of the various buildings were connected by trams. The library was on the other side of campus from the dorms, not far from the spaceport and Earthfleet headquarters itself.

It was currently night on the moon, and the Earth hung like a brilliant blue-green marble in an otherwise dark sky. Swirls and streaks of bright white clouds covered its surface. The tram was mostly empty, so I had the view almost entirely to myself.

“Phoenix Tanner from Earthfleet News,” the announcer on the radio stated, briefly interrupting my nervous thoughts. “Tensions remain high at New Australia as the Earthfleet task force headed by Field Admiral Cox refused to lift the military quarantine of the system. The two civilian ships detained by the task force remain under Earthfleet control, and repeated requests by the colonial authorities to release the crew have been denied. For the last several months, the president of New Australia has defied the Grand Council of Earth’s ban on the immortality serum to treat children suffering from chronic illnesses, while medical authorities on Earth insist that there are safe, legal ways to address the colony’s medical needs. In other news…”

My mind drifted as the news droned on. The only reason I’d picked up that first story was because Charlotte was from New Australia. A little less than half of the students at the academy were from the colonies. Sam Kletchka, my brother-in-law, had attended for a year before dropping out. If he hadn’t insisted that I finish my studies first, I would have already dropped out and joined his crew.

Well, that’s not entirely true. I probably would have stayed on a couple more months, just to see how things worked out with Charlotte. But the moment she rejected me, as I inwardly dreaded she would, I would have been out of there.

The tram came to a stop, and the doors slid open. I walked out on watery legs. The library was a big place, even for Luna’s standards, but I had a pretty good idea where to find her. Sure enough, she was studying at a cubby on the library’s top floor. I’d seen her in the same general vicinity several times in the previous semester—not that I was stalking her, of course. Her attention was focused on her tablet, with headphones in her ears in a way that said “do not disturb.”

Allow me to take a moment to describe just how gorgeous Charlotte is. Thin and petite, with hourglass proportions and a narrow waist, her eyes are a piercing blue and her hair is as black as midnight. It was cut just above her shoulders, so it bobbed and swung with every move of her head. Her face was long, her lips red and moist, her nose small and slightly upturned. It was the fire in her eyes, though, that really got to me. She may have been small, but she was full of energy and passion, and a hell of a lot stronger than she looked.

With all that said, you can understand why I was intimidated. The moment I saw her, I ducked behind a nearby bookshelf and spent the next few minutes working up the nerve to talk to her. Heart pounding and legs weak, I eventually decided to hell with it and walked over.

“H-hi Charlotte.”

She glanced up at me with a look of contempt normally reserved for strangers. Seeing that I wanted to talk, she reluctantly pulled the headphones out of her ears.

“What do you want, Rex?”

“I, uh, I heard you just came back from b-break,” I stammered. “Your roommates said I might find you here.”

She stared at me evenly, betraying no reaction. I inwardly flagellated myself.

“So, uh, we have a few days before classes start, and I was wondering, uh, if maybe, uh, you wanted to get lunch or something?”

She blinked. “Lunch?”

“Yeah,” I said quickly. “Food court, student center, tomorrow at noon. What do you say?”

From the expression on her face, it looked like my attempt at asking her out had just crashed and burned. My heart sank. If falling through the floor was an option, I probably would have taken it.

“I’ll let you know,” she said, slipping her headphones back over her ears as she turned back to her tablet.

“Uh, thanks,” I stammered.

She glanced up one last time, as if to ask why I was still there. I beat a hasty retreat, tail tucked firmly between my legs, and silently cursed myself with every bad word in my vocabulary.

I felt six inches shorter. I felt like I’d forgotten to put on pants this morning.

I felt like a fool.

Our encounter had lasted mere seconds, and yet as I walked in a daze back to the tram, I couldn’t help but dissect and analyze every moment of it. Charlotte’s icy gaze. My own nervous stammering. Her utterly unreadable face. The longer I thought about it, the more convinced I became that I’d made an utter fool of myself. Frank was wrong: asking her out in person had been a collossal mistake. Any hope I had of dating her was over.

As the empty tram took off again, I stared up at Earth, wondering what the hell I was doing with my life. I didn’t care about Earthfleet. I didn’t care about my studies. I did care about Charlotte, but that was all in the toilet now, thanks to the fool I’d made of myself.

That was when my phone buzzed.

I frowned and pulled it out of my pocket. It was a text—from Charlotte. My heart skipped a beat, and for a very brief moment I hesitated, fearing to read it. But curiosity soon got the better of me.

Food court tomorrow at noon. I’ll be there.

A boyish grin spread across my face as I pocketed my phone, and with no one else on the tram I pumped my fist and shouted “yes!”

Maybe it hadn’t gone as badly as I’d thought back in the library. Maybe she didn’t think I was a fool. Maybe, just maybe, there was a chance things could work out with Charlotte and me.

As I was soon about to learn, I had no idea what I was in for.

Good things are happening!

It’s been a while since I posted a general update here on the blog, and while I’ve been sharing regular updates to my mailing list, enough has been happening that I suppose I should let all the rest of you know what’s going on.

First, I decided to pull out a bunch of investment money and put it into my writing, in order to go full-time for the next few months (and hopefully for the forseeable future). I shared more about this on my newsletter. Basically, I rewrote my business plan and decided that my best way forward is to go all-in for the next few months, writing more books and growing my business. I have a plan, and if it works, I’ll be able to go full-time indefinitely.

Second—and this may seem to contradict the first—I got a job at the local used bookstore, Pioneer Book! I’ve been going to this bookstore for years, befriending the manager and several employees, and several months ago (before I decided to reinvest in my writing business) I dropped off a resume in the hopes of getting a job there. When I got the call, I wasn’t going to turn it down.

It’s a part-time, 20 hours per week job that fits in perfectly with my writing. It’s also a job where I get to work with books, and be around bookish people, so I’m sure there will be lots of opportunities to learn interesting things that will help as I build my own writing and publishing career. Basically, it’s the perfect day job for a writer, and I’ve really been enjoying it so far.

Writing-wise, I just finished Gunslinger to Earth, the third book in the Gunslingers trilogy, and I’m finishing up the revisions to send it to my editor hopefully in the next few weeks. My next WIP is Edenfall, and I’m hard at work on it now. The goal is to finish it by March, and publish it over the summer.

Publishing-wise, I’ve revamped the backmatter in my books again, with a new map for how everything connects to everything else. The biggest change is in my short stories, which aren’t mapped out here, but basically I’m going to focus on putting them into bundles, and have the singles point there. Eventually, I want to have only one or two singles for every bundle, with five to six stories per bundle. I have enough stories written to fill out four bundles, but a bunch of them are still out on submission, so it could take a while.

I’ve also been doing a lot more to build my email list, not just through Prolific Works but also through Bookfunnel, Story Origin, and MyBookCave. There is a method to the madness, and all of this fits into the wider plan. I’ve also updated the pricing on some of my books, and experimenting with AMS ads, though there’s not much to report on that front at the moment.

In short, I’ve been pretty busy. Most of my time and effort is going toward writing. I’ve got a very aggressive writing schedule for the next year, and hope to finish all of my trilogies before 2020, including the Genesis Earth trilogy and the Twelfth Sword trilogy. The way I have it planned out, if I can average 1600 words a day, I’ll be able to do that no problem.

As far as my personal life is concerned, I’ve been dating a really fantastic girl for the last few months and things are going very, very well. I’m not sure how much of that I should share, but you’ll probably hear more about it in the future, if not here on the blog, then definitely in my author’s notes and newsletter.

As of right now, 2019 is looking to be a fantastic year! I’m really looking forward to seeing what the rest of the year will bring, and I expect I’ll have lots of good things to share with you in the future. Take care, and thanks for reading!

Finishing up Gunslinger to Earth

I’m finishing up right now with the third and final book in the Gunslingers Trilogy, Gunslinger to Earth. Just one more chapter to wrap everything up, then all the final revisions for the last few chapters. So far, so good.

At 40k words, this is turning out to be one of my shorter novels. I’m really happy with how it’s turned out so far, though. It wraps up a bunch of stuff from the previous books, with a surprisingly hopeful and optimistic look toward the future of the universe.

Over the next couple of weeks, I’ll post a few excerpts, being careful to avoid any spoilers for the previous books. If all goes well, it should be up for preorder sometime in February, with an April release date.

In case you’re curious, I wrote almost the whole thing while listening to the 2009 A State of Trance year mix. Such a great year for trance.

Next up, Edenfall!