Encouraging realizations

So today I realized something about my writing process that encouraged me quite a bit.  With every project so far that I’ve finished, revised, and polished (or will soon be polishing), I went through a depressing period where the draft absolutely sucked and I questioned whether I was just wasting my time with the whole project.  I went through it with Genesis Earth, I went through it with Mercenary Savior, and I’m going through it right now with Worlds Away from Home.

None of that is new, of course; what’s new is the realization that this phase is an essential part of my personal writing process. In other words, it’s not a distressing thing that I’m going through this phase–it’s actually a sign that things are normal.  The story has potential but needs a significant overhaul, so until I complete that overhaul I’m only going to see how much it sucks.

The trick, of course, is keeping momentum.  I’ve found that if I consistently write 2,500 words per day, my mind is so absorbed in the story that I can make good headway on it.  I only revised through about 1.4k today, but I cut off at least another 2k of useless fat, so I suppose that works.

I also submitted Genesis Earth to two agents, so overall, today was quite productive.  I’ll probably count those as my submissions for this week, to allow people time off for the holidays.  Of course, I won’t stop writing!

Out of it

Man, I feel like I’ve been so out of it recently.  I’ve been getting up around 9 am or 10 am every day, going to bed every night around 2 am or 3 am, and running around so much that I hardly seem to have time to write.  Life is good, and between plasma and phone book deliveries I’m earning enough to get by, but my days are very unstructured and that’s not good for my writing.

So here’s what I need: a stable job that facilitates my writing.  For the past year, I’ve been working random odd jobs and temporary jobs, and while they pay enough to get by (just barely), the variability and lack of long-term security is just too much to juggle on top of writing.  I’ve got to find something else.

Trouble is, I’m afraid that if I settle for a dead end job, it’ll put such a stigma on me that I won’t be able to get a better job later if the writing career doesn’t take off.  I’m pretty confident that I’ll eventually be able to make a living off my writing, but I don’t know how late or how soon that’s going to happen.  The last thing I want is to end up as a wage-slave without a future.

Anyway, despite the lack of daily structure, I really love the flexibility that this phone book delivery job is giving me.  Pay is on a per route basis (like newspaper delivery), and the supervisor is really awesome and easy to work with.

If I want, I can take the mornings easy, do personal chores for a while, deliver a couple hundred phone books and write in the evenings.  That’s basically what I’ve been doing these past three weeks.

I really hate going to bed and waking up late, though.  That’s not sustainable.  If I come to my writing only at the very end of the day, it’s going to be a wash.  I might get a thousand words in, but if I’m not consistently crossing the 2.5k threshold every day, my heart really just isn’t in to it.

In any case, WAFH 2.0 is coming along fairly well.  I’ve got a good idea where I want the story to go, and the characters seem to be working out.  Also, I think I’ve found my big reason for wanting to write this story–I’ll write more about that in a later post.

This next draft isn’t going to be perfect, but hopefully I can get rid of all the major story problems (and there are a TON of major story problems!).  I suppose my goal at this point is to make it good enough to send out to my first readers.  The rough draft is so full of crap, I wouldn’t let anyone read it if they paid me.  Blegh!

Also, I know it’s only been a month, but I think I’m going to do another cover to cover revision of Mercenary Savior in the next few weeks.  I really want to get it polished enough to start sending it out–preferably by the end of the holidays–so that’s probably going to take priority. If it goes as fast as Genesis Earth 5.0, I should have the entire manuscript done in about three or four weeks.

And another thing–I’m going to set a new goal: submit at least one thing to an agent/editor every week.  Right now, I tend to go on splurges where I’ll send out half a dozen queries, then sit around for a month without really doing much to try to break in.  I feel like I need to be more consistent on that front, because submitting is definitely one of my greatest weaknesses.  They say everything comes better with practice, so I might as well send stuff out more regularly.

Anyhow, that’s how things are going right now–disjointed and all over the place, but somehow things still get done.  I just wish I could get more done, but who doesn’t?  Anyhow, there’s always next week–may it be better than the last.

Getting back into things

So yesterday, I wrote through 4k words in WAFH 2.0 without even realizing it.  I didn’t feel very productive, because I only did about 500 words at a time before something came up and I got distracted, but by the end of the day, ended up accomplishing a lot.  That was a pleasant surprise.

In terms of my writing, I’ve been really out of things since Thanksgiving.  I finished Genesis Earth 5.0 right before the vacation and started outlining WAFH 2.0 immediately after, but…man, the rough draft REALLY sucks.  Like, sucks so bad I’ll have to completely throw out part III and start from scratch.

Fortunately, I think I’ve got a good idea what to do.  I’ve outlined about eighteen complete plots and subplots, so that’ll probably help out with keeping things tight.  The rough draft has a lot of shotgun writing, which means I have a lot of stuff to cut out–and now that I see where things are going, I know how to cut it.

One thing that worries me, however, is that I don’t have a strong driving reason to write this book–or maybe I do, but I just haven’t noticed it yet.  I’m hoping that’s the case, but I don’t yet know, and it’s really bugging me.

For Genesis Earth, it was the first line (“Earth was a ghost that haunted me”) and the cryo scene.  For Mercenary Savior, it was the ending, and the way it resonated with an old Western I saw as a kid.  With both projects, I got to a point of desperation somewhere between the first and second drafts where I wanted to throw everything out and never work on it again–but with both projects, that driving reason kept me going until I made it work.

With WAFH, however, I’m not sure what it is that’s driving me to write it.  For now, though, I’ll just press through until I find out.  I really hope I’m not just wasting my time writing this (because the rough draft sucks REALLY bad) but past experience has told me to ignore my own self-doubts at this phase.

Which reminds me: this week’s Writing Excuses podcast is really amazing.  I just listened to it an hour or two ago, and the advice this time around was exactly what I needed to hear.  Brandon’s advice in particular is very good: he basically says to stop worrying and enjoy what you’re doing.

So do I enjoy all of this?  In spite of all the angst I’ve spilled, I think I can say that I do.  When you’ve got a good story, and you know that it’s good, and you tell it in a way that moves someone else in a personally meaningful way–man, there’s nothing that compares to that.  I look back now on stuff I used to think was absolute drivel, and I’m amazed.  It takes persistence and drive and a little bit of crazy, but once you can get to that point, it makes everything you did to get there worth it.

The only thing now is to find out why WAFH is worth writing, and to hang onto those reasons at all costs until the story comes into its own.  Wish me luck!

Slogging through a funk

Just a quick update, since it’s 3 am and I’m kind of in a daze after playing Halo: Reach on Xbox live with my roommate.  Whoa, decompressing…

This whole week, I’ve been in a weird funk.  It sucks to be unemployed, especially since I can’t commit to anything long term because I’m waiting to hear back from the wilderness job.  Man, I really hope I get it–but even if I do, I’ll need to raise some cash to keep me going through January until the paychecks start coming in.  And if I don’t get the job, I have no idea what I’ll do.

But mostly, it has to do with my writing.  I’ve been running through the rough draft of Worlds Away from Home, and…holy crap, it REALLY sucks.  It sucks to the point where I’m not sure exactly how to fix it.

Part of it probably has to do with my initial ambitions for it, which I probably set too high.  I originally wanted to write a science fiction romance that turned the “romance” element on its head by having the sex be the thing pushing the characters apart rather than bringing them together.  I got a little too didactic in the rough draft, though, and failed to tell a story that, at it’s root, is meant to entertain.

That’s probably the most important thing–to tell a story that’s fundamentally entertaining.  So I’ve been looking at that, and I’m finding that there are significantly fewer plot threads here than there were in Mercenary Savior.  That, and there’s considerably less suspense.  The character arcs are still sufficiently complex, I think, but there aren’t nearly as many hooks and cliffhangers as my other work.

This whole week, I’ve been vacillating between “alright, I can do this” to “this novel sucks and I should just throw it out and never work on it again.” In fact, I drew up a chart today of all the novels I’ve started, finished a first draft, and finished a polished draft–and the results are a little stark.

I only just produced a fully polished draft for Genesis Earth, so at 2010 I’ve finally gotten one novel to the point where I think it’s as good as I can make it without an editor/agent to help.  One freaking novel–and that’s after two years of work.  Mercenary Savior, I’m finding, isn’t quite where it needs to be, though it’s close–probably I’ll nail it down in early 2011.  But other than those two?  I’ve got nothing.

I started Worlds Away from Home back in 2008, and I’m wondering whether I was even good enough back then to craft a story that could carry through a complete novel.  Ashes of the Starry Sea was probably a bit too ambitious, and Genesis Earth, while it ended up working out, was so small in scope that it wasn’t that hard to pull off.

Is something fundamentally flawed with Worlds Away from Home? Did I bite off more than I could chew?  Is the story premise so screwed up that I should just abandon it and reuse it occasionally for scraps?

I have no idea.  Maybe I’m just being too angsty–after all, I started Genesis Earth BEFORE I started Worlds Away from Home, and that one turned out great.  It took two years, of course, but it worked out in the end.

So will this one work out?  Probably, I suppose–but only if I can solidly get behind it.  I’m trying to put together a detailed plot outline to figure out what the story needs, but if I can’t find something else–something on par with the cryo scene and the first line of Genesis Earth, which for the longest time were the only two things keeping me from trashing that project–if I can’t find something redeemable like that, I might just drop this monstrosity and let it die.

Blarg.  I hate this.  I might just take a break from things and write a couple short stories.  This whole week, I’ve been writing nothing but outlines and revision notes–I need to do something a little more creative.

Anyhow, that’s what I’m currently slogging through.  Before the end of next week, I’m hoping to find out whether I’ve got that wilderness job or not.  Let’s hope…

Pulling along

Just a quick post, because it’s 3:30 am and I’ve got a TON of stuff to do tomorrow, such as:

1) cleaning checks
2) replace the air filter in my car
3) go running with my bro in law
4) finish Genesis Earth 5.0
5) band practice
6) watch Inception with a bunch of friends at the dollar theater

Yeah, tons of stuff.  So anyways…

I’m amazed at how quickly I’m pulling through Genesis Earth.  Yesterday I revised through 11.7k words, and today I did about 14.1k.

At this point, most of the work is sentence and paragraph level, and has more to do with voice and rhythm than actual story.  There were a few science issues, mostly having to do with distances and velocities, but thanks to Logan I think I’ve caught most of those.  Thanks so much!

I’m also finding out that this story is much better than I used to think it was.  With all the form rejections I’ve been getting for it, I wondered for a while whether I should put it back in the trunk and let it quietly die.  Now, however, I can see that it has a lot more promise than I’d previously thought.  Even if it isn’t published as my first novel, I really do believe that this story deserves a home.

At the same time, though, I’ve noticed some major differences between my writing in this piece and my writing in the stuff I’ve written more recently.  I’m not sure exactly how to put it, but I think it has something to do with voice.  I don’t want to say that Genesis Earth is more choppy, but it does seem a lot more…matter of fact, if that makes sense.  There are also a lot more rhetorical questions, but I think that’s an artifact of the 1st person perspective.

But even if the voice in this piece is different from my voice now, it’s different in a good way.  It feels more…YA?  I’m not exactly sure, but it seems to work.  The sequels, if/when I write them, will probably be in 3rd person (ala Spin and Axis by Robert Charles Wilson), and that’s going to create a much different feel than this book.

It worked for Axis, though, so I think I can pull it off–that is, if/when Genesis Earth gets picked up by a publisher.  I don’t want to write the other two books in this trilogy until I know the first one is sold.

In unrelated news, I had a job interview today.  It was with a wilderness therapy company, the same that wait listed me for the January training.  I really hope I get in–more than anything at this point in my life, I feel that I need to gain some major life experience.  Probably the biggest stumper question was “what three words would you use to describe yourself in your last job, and what three words would your supervisor use to describe you?” A difficult question, particularly when all your recent jobs have been temp jobs.  I think I did alright, though–now, we just need to wait and see.

In other unrelated news, I threw an awesome movie night tonight.  We watched Scott Pilgrim vs. The World, and maybe fifteen people showed up–most of them from Quark, but a couple of friends from some other places too.  Man, that Scott Pilgrim movie is epic. So hilarious, so entertaining, and at the same time, so true.  And then, we went to Dairy Queen and hung out until midnight hanging out.  It was great.

In still other unrelated news, I recently ordered the anime series Planetes on DVD.  It was at a good price, and I knew I’d buy it eventually, so I allowed myself to splurge.  I am so happy I did, because the science fiction elements are done surprisingly well.  All the little details, from the zero gravity handholds in the walls to the way the stations spin, are surprisingly true to real life, and the show’s vision of 2075 is not beyond the realm of our own possible future.  In other words, Planetes is quite possibly the best rocketpunk anime show out there, and a great source for inspiration.

Well, that’s enough for now.  Tomorrow, I will finish this novel and send it out to the agent who requested it.  In the meantime, though, it’s 4:00 am and I must sleep.

Juggling projects isn’t a good antidote to procrastination

Yeah, the title basically says it all.  I’m working on Genesis Earth 5.0 and Into the Nebulous Deep 1.0, and while I’m doing really well in the one, I’m not keeping up so much in the other.

First, Genesis Earth. Since I finished the previous draft more than a year ago, I thought I’d find a lot of problems, especially with my prose.  Instead, while a lot of the sentence/paragraph level stuff needs tightening, I’m finding to my surprise that the writing isn’t all that bad.

Today, I breezed through over 8k words, and that between running, donating plasma, FHE, and a bunch of other distractions.  If I put even a moderate amount of effort into this, I can have it finished before next week.  That’s good, because I had an agent at World Fantasy request to see it; if I can put it on her desk before Thanksgiving, that can only be a good thing.

But as for my other project, ITND 1.0…yeah, it’s not coming along as well as I’d hoped.  The reasons are stupid, too–mostly just lost momentum and writer’s avoidance.

Right now, I’m stuck in a scene where I’m trying to build romantic tension between two characters.  I feel like I have a decent handle on who they are…but for some reason, it feels a little too shallow.  Maybe that’s because I’m still discovering who these characters are, maybe it’s because I tend to go deeper than most–or maybe it’s just because it’s the kind of scene that’s hard to get into, but once you’re in, it really flows.  I just haven’t forced myself to write it–maybe once I do, these problems will go away.

I do feel like I’m doing a pretty good job setting up the story.  Last week, I ran the first chapter through my online writing group, and while it definitely had issues, everyone said that they would keep reading if this was a book they’d picked up off the shelf.  That tells me that at least I’m starting in the right place.

The characters, though, and the conflict…I worry that it’s not as deep or as hard-hitting as the first book, Mercenary Savior. I skimmed over that book just a couple days ago before sending it out to a friend from World Fantasy, and…wow.  I don’t want to brag, but I think I did a good job with that one.  A damn good job.

So can I pull off that kind of depth and impact in the second book?  That’s the fear, that it won’t live up to the first one.  And certainly, the rough draft won’t be as good–not by a long shot.  But the subsequent drafts?  I don’t know.

Maybe I should just write and worry about it later, though.  When I was in the middle of Worlds Away from Home, I constantly thought to myself how crappy the draft was.  When I got to the end, though, and looked back on how far the story had come, I realized that it had potential to be at least as powerful as Mercenary Savior–perhaps even more.  And to be honest, that came as quite a surprise.

I don’t know.  I hope I’m not just deceiving myself–it can be hard, when you’re toiling in obscurity, to separate the truth from your own self-deception.  But for now, things are going well–I’m making good progress in Genesis Earth, and while Into the Nebulous Deep has lost a lot of momentum, all it really needs is a good solid block of undistracted writing to get it going again.  Life is good.

Word splurge and refining the query

So this morning, I worked on the fifth draft of Genesis Earth while Facebook chatting with some friends I made from World Fantasy.  Next thing I know, it’s 4:30 and I’ve revised through 6.5k words.

To be fair, most of that work was pretty simple–polishing the prose, cutting unnecessary verbage, and the like.  But…wow.  Talk about a splurge.

Because of that, though, I didn’t get any work done in my other project, Into the Nebulous Deep. However, I did do something I’ve been needing to do since before World Fantasy: draft a query letter for Mercenary Savior. Here it is:

Dear _______,

My name is Joseph Vasicek, and I am writing to query my science fiction novel, Mercenary Savior.  I thought my work would be a good fit for you because ______.

As the galactic empire slowly collapses under the onslaught of the starfaring Hameji nomads, the sixteen year old James McCoy sets out to rescue his older brother and sister, Ben and Stella, from the Hameji conquerors.

Things look bleak until he meets Danica Nova, captain of a down-and-out mercenary company, who takes him in and becomes his mentor.  James reminds Danica of her brother, whom she failed to save when the empire slaughtered her family years ago.  Now, she hopes to find some redemption from her demons by saving James from his own.

However, as the two of them spiral onto a collision course with destiny, neither of them realizes that Stella has become a concubine to the Hameji overlord–and that Ben has been brainwashed and made an elite shock trooper in the unit sent to hunt them down.

Mercenary Savior is approximately 120,000 words long.  While it stands on its own as a complete story, it has potential for at least one direct sequel and several indirectly connected novels set in the same universe.

My previous publications include one short story published in the December 2009 issue of Leading Edge.  I have also won first and second place in the annual Mayhew short story contest at Brigham Young University (for 2009 and 2007 respectively).  In addition, I keep a regular blog at http://onelowerlight.com/writing.

Thank you very much for your consideration.  As noted in your submission guidelines, I have included _____.

Cordially,

Joseph Vasicek

So what do you think?  Does the pitch work?  Does it resonate well, or is it boring / cliched / confusing in any way?  Any thing else egregious that I should fix before I send this out?  Please let me know!

I really suck at submitting stuff.  Right now, I’ve only got three or four queries out on Genesis Earth, and one on Mercenary Savior. Like most things, though, the only way to change that is with practice.  By next week, I want to send out at least five queries on Mercenary Savior and have the synopsis ready to go.

Also, my friend from World Fantasy had an interesting suggestion for me: try to break into the small presses with my science fiction stuff, to build a name for myself, and work my way up from there.

This runs directly contrary to Dave Wolverton’s break in with a bang philosophy, but it makes sense; very few major publishers seem to be publishing much space opera these days (with the exception of Baen).  From what I gathered at World Fantasy, science fiction is a difficult sell these days, and several sf writers are going this route.

I could write more, on other subjects, but that’s enough for now.  Good frickin night.

Excerpt from Genesis Earth

I spend a lot of time posting about my writing, but up until now I’ve never posted any of it.  Well, I figured it was time to change that and post something from my second unpublished novel, Genesis Earth.

Here’s how I’ve been pitching it in my queries:

Michael Anderson is a young, obsessive planetologist haunted by the fear that he will never live up to the legacy of his astrophysicist parents. Terra Beck is the outcast child of a bitter divorce, who only wants to run away and immerse herself in her one true passion: astronomy. Neither of them has ever set foot on Earth, but when Michael’s parents construct mankind’s first artificial wormhole, both of them are naturally chosen for the exploration mission to the Earth-like planet on the other side.

Shortly after their arrival in-system, Michael finds himself in an unanticipated first contact situation when an enormous alien ship appears out of nowhere and begins to converge on their position. When it ignores all their transmissions and shoots down their probes, the situation quickly degenerates into an emergency. To make matters worse, Terra secludes her self in the observatory and stops sharing her data with him.

Alone, twenty light years from the nearest human being, they must learn to open up and trust each other. As Michael struggles to keep the mission from falling apart, he is forced to reexamine his deepest, most unquestioned beliefs about the universe–and about what it means to be human.

Right now, I’m running it through a fifth draft before I send it to an agent I met at World Fantasy.  Here is the prologue, where Michael begins his tale.

Enjoy!

Chapter 1

Earth was a ghost that haunted me. She was the single greatest thing that set us space-born apart from the older generation, the five hundred members of the original mission team. Though Heinlein station was the only home I had ever known, I soon learned that Earth, a world I had never seen except in pictures and videos, was where I was truly from.

My parents set the decorative screens in their bedroom to cycle through pictures of old Earth. While they were busy working in the lab, I would often sneak inside and stare at those images for hours. The landscapes and skyscapes they depicted were always so alien to me. Unbroken blue expanse overhead, instead of the grayish space rock of our asteroid. That line between floor and sky known as the ‘horizon.’ Solid ground underfoot, instead of the milky starfield shining up through transparent floors. Trees, plants, and shrubbery growing freely without the aid of hydroponics. Hundreds of human beings walking down wide open-air corridors called ‘roads,’–more people than I’d ever known in my life.

When I was about five years old, I used to ask my mother to bring out her photo album–the one with actual, physical pictures from the old world. I would sit on her lap and stare wide-eyed at the pictures as she explained them to me. That was my uncle, that was my grandmother, those were my cousins: faces from an unreachable world nearly half a light year away and getting further every moment.

One day, sitting on my mother’s lap, I glanced up from the album and saw tears in her eyes. That was the first time I had ever seen my mother cry. It made me feel frightened and unprotected, even in her arms. I never asked her to show me the pictures of Earth again.

Perhaps you’ve found, as I have, that the things that frighten you incite more fascination than the things you love. I trace the beginning of my career as a planetologist to that childhood incident, sitting on my mother’s lap. Years later, when I began my graduate level education, there was never a question in my mind what I would study. I had already chosen.

To me, planetology was never about physics, geology, or chemistry. Those were only the details. It wasn’t even about making a lasting contribution to the science–at least, not when I first started. I studied alien worlds simply to turn the lights on–to dispel the ever-present ghost of Earth that had haunted me from my childhood.

Did it work? Not really. But as I grew, my fascination with Earth grew with me.

Fourteen might seem like a young age to enter one’s chosen field, but you must realize that half the people on Heinlein station were highly trained physicists and engineers. With so many scientists on board, there was no shortage of teachers for those of us who grew up on the station. My parents personally tutored me, and they were two of the most brilliant physicists Earth had ever produced. They were, in fact, the chief scientists over the Mission itself.

The Mission was the closest thing to religion that I ever had. If religious devotion is measured by sacrifices incurred on the basis of unproven belief, I suppose that everyone on the station qualified for sainthood. We had set out from Earth to create mankind’s first wormhole, or prove that it could not be done. For this, my parents had given up everything: family, friends, their homes. Everything. The only safe place for such an experiment was two light years from Earth, and so we spent my entire youth and childhood in transit, not knowing whether the Mission would succeed or fail.

My study of planetology won me a great deal of admiration from the old timers, much to my surprise. Grown-ups who only a few years ago had chastised me for playing hide-and-go-seek in the labs now treated me like someone important. The scientists and engineers routinely asked me what I thought we’d find once we’d opened the wormhole. After all, why would a fourteen year old study about alien worlds if he didn’t expect to visit them someday? They treated me as if I had run some sort of gauntlet or passed a test of tremendous faith. I was one of them, united in the hope of a successful outcome to the great experiment–or, stranger still, I was a role model to them, someone with the faith they struggled so much to keep.

They could not have been more wrong. I didn’t want to explore new planets or set foot on an alien world. The closest I ever came was through the eyepiece of a telescope, and that was the way I wanted it. My studies were purely academic.

When I turned eighteen, we arrived at ground zero. The station became a flurry of nervous energy as we maneuvered into position and set up the hundred trillion kilowatt NOVA generators and focusing mirrors for the graviton beams. With everything spread out across hundreds of cubic kilometers of space, it took us nearly two months before we were ready.

Twenty two years after embarking from Earth, on June 24th, 2143 C.E., the day of the experiment finally arrived. That day forever changed the course of my life.

At the moment of truth, I lay sprawled out on the transparent floor in my room, watching the stars turn beneath me. Large crowds had gathered in other locations to watch, but I preferred to be alone. My father’s voice came over the station-wide radio, giving his moment-by-moment report. Though I was alone, the excitement on the station was so thick could almost taste it.

I hear that it’s common for people on Earth to dream about falling from a great height. I’d never had that dream–the concept of vertigo meant nothing to me. I think I got a taste of it, however, as I watched the wormhole form in the sky.

The starfield began to spread out from a single dark point, the way a film of oil on water separates when it touches a drop of soap. The hole grew surprisingly fast, pushing the stars aside and forming a circle of warped, diffused starlight around its edge. I gasped in fright; the center was pure black, the color of an abyss. As it grew larger, I felt as if it were sucking me in. Soon, however, the hole stabilized, as if it had always been there.

As the station rotated, I discovered that the wormhole had warped the starfield beyond all recognition. I tried to find the constellations I’d known so well, but could only pick out one or two. I felt sad knowing I’d never see any of them again.

The scientists didn’t take much time off to celebrate, but when they did, they went completely wild. Alcohol was everywhere in abundance, from numerous stores and hoards that had been kept for this very occasion. The shiest, most reserved people danced drunk in the hallways, and old enemies who hadn’t talked for years walked up and down the corridors with arms on each others’ shoulders. A spirit of happy, universal friendship swept over the station. People let their guards down, took off their masks, and momentarily forgot any hard hard feelings. It was a glorious time–the end of history.

Eventually, though, the celebration lost steam, the hangovers died down, and we woke up to face the inevitable future. Our robotic probes explored the wormhole and made some basic observations of the other side.

Their findings were frightening enough to sober us all.

Graviton theory told us how to create an artificial wormhole, but it gave us no way to predict where it would open up. We could expect one of three possible outcomes: first, that the wormhole opened to a different location in our present universe; second, that it opened to a different location and different time in our universe; or third, that it opened to an entirely different universe than our own. In every meaningful way, however, we were shooting blind in the dark.

The first observations showed a universe very much like our own, with stars, galaxies, and other nebulae. Just twenty light years away, orbiting a yellow-white main sequence dwarf, the probes discovered a handful of exoplanets. One of them, a terrestrial world, orbited within the star’s habitable zone. An initial spectroscopic survey revealed that the atmosphere of the planet was rich in oxygen and nitrogen–just like Earth.

That was when we detected the signal.

The last probe to return picked up an unnatural high frequency radiation burst, originating from the system with the planet. It lasted only half an hour before dissipating, but was powerful enough to be detectable halfway through the wormhole. No naturally occurring object emitted that kind of signal. The only thing we could compare it to was the radio emissions from a standard NOVA engine–but even then, the signal was more than a hundred times more powerful than anything our technology could produce.

In other words, something strange was out there–something we couldn’t explain. The only way to find out more was to send out a mission to explore the alien star.

As the only qualified planetologist young enough to survive cryofreeze, I was an obvious pick for the mission from the very start. Though I never wanted to go, I couldn’t refuse; if I had, my parents would have killed me. This, they believed, was our moment in history–our moment to make a truly historic contribution to science and humanity. Why wouldn’t I jump at such an opportunity? Of course I would go.

I didn’t become a planetologist to set foot on alien worlds. That was the last thing I ever wanted. After we opened the wormhole, however, what I wanted no longer mattered.

Or so I thought.

I’m still here!

Man, it’s been forever since I’ve posted something.  I’d blog more often, but I think you guys would get bored pretty quick if all I did was tell you how the writing went each day.  Don’t be fooled; the writing process isn’t NEARLY as interesting as the stuff we write (unless you’re writing amateur fanfic…just kidding!).

So anyways, life is extremely busy these days.  Between my temp job at a warehouse, Leading Edge, Institute, church, Quark, and finishing the revision of Mercenary Savior, I feel incredibly crunched for time.  I’ve been pulling about 1k to 3k words per day, but last week was horrendously unproductive and I’ve got to really push hard to finish this beast in time for World Fantasy.

But it’s going to happen–that’s for sure.  I’ll finish my job at the end of this week, and with the extra free time I’m sure I’ll be able to finish it in time.  I passed the 100k word mark last night, and it looks like this draft is going to be around 120k to 125k.  Still a little long for a science fiction novel, but not too long (I hope).

As I get closer to the end, I’ve noticed that I tend to use a shotgun approach in resolving the conflicts in my rough drafts.  Instead of following each arc through in a focused, logical manner, the last few chapters of my drafts tend to go all over the place, trying halfheartedly to resolve everything at once.

The bad thing about this is that the last half of the book requires a lot more work to revise.  The good part, however, is that I can cut off a ton of fat at the tail end, significantly shortening the final wordcount.  It’s good to be able to manipulate that number late in the game.

As far as my plans for November, if I do participate in nanowrimo, it’s going to be with a serious project that I was already planning on doing, not something wild and spontaneous.  I don’t think taking the time off to write something I know will never be published is going to help me as a writer.

At the same time, however, it only takes about 1.5k to 2k per day for 30 days to complete nanowrimo, and that’s about the rate that I’m writing right now (a little less, actually).  With World Fantasy smack at the end of October, I probably won’t start anything new until November 1st.  So even though I’m not taking time off from my serious stuff to do it, I probably will participate in nanowrimo this year.

As far as other stuff going on in November, I am very much looking forward to seeing my sister in Houston over Thanksgiving weekend.  Since I don’t know if I can find a job that will give me that week off, and since I’m already in a pretty good financial place with the money from this last job, I think I’ll take most of the month off to focus on my writing, rather than look for full-time work.

However, I have been thinking a lot about becoming a freelance translator.  One thing I’ve learned from working in a warehouse (and I’ll blog more about this at the end of the week) is that I hate not using the stuff I learned in college.  My original plan when I chose to major in Mideast studies was to use Arabic to find a regular job until the writing took off, and so far I haven’t done that.

Besides, I REALLY want to go back to the Middle East someday.  If I can improve my Arabic to the point where I feel I can get along better than the average American student, I might just move over there for a year or two (or five or ten…).

Anyhow, I’ve got a ton of stuff to do (including writing–I want to hit at least 3k today), so that’s all for now.  See ya!

Danger: difficult plot ahead

Just a quick post before I turn in and try to catch up on the sleep that I didn’t get last night (insomnia sucks).

I’m entering a very difficult part of the revision for Mercenary Savior. I’m a little more than a third of the way through the story (as you can tell from the status bar to your right), which is usually where my writing starts to get iffy.

Up until now, most of the work has to do with revising or rewriting individual scenes.  That’s no too difficult; it’s very easy, for me at least, to focus on the page itself and fixing problems on the sentence and paragraph level.

The problem now, though, is that some of the chapters aren’t working as coherent units.  Some of them feel slapped together, as if scenes that don’t really have much in common have been thrown in the same chapter merely because I didn’t know where else to put them.  That doesn’t make for good chapters.

So now, I need to take a few steps back from the page and look at the forest instead of the trees.  I need to figure out which events need to be clustered into which chapters, in order for the scenes to resonate with each other and build up to the climax without bumbling on each others’ toes.

I’m going to try out a few new tools to help with the plotting, most notably Dan Well’s 7 point system.  I’ve already worked out the essential plot points for about a dozen of the conflicts in the story; now I just need to see which ones go in which chapter.

I wish I had time to use it now, but dagnabit, it’s 1:30 in the morning, and I have to get up at 7:00 tomorrow.  Dang.  Well, at least I have work–and it’s good work for an aspiring writer in my position.  More on that in a later post.

Anyway, good night.