Life in the Real World

So it’s been a week since I graduated, and life in the “real world” is very different from academia.  In some ways, it’s scary, but in other ways, it’s actually kind of fun.

Freedom from schoolwork is HUGE.  Seriously, I had no idea how much day-to-day stress came from school until now.  Without this or that assignment hanging over my head, I feel incredibly liberated.  I can go wherever I want, or do whatever I feel like doing, and the only restrictions on my time are the ones I set for myself.

Of course, life isn’t stress free–far from it.  Employment is definitely a problem.  I need to find a job and start making some kind of an income.  That’s the main stressor right now–how am I going to sustain myself?

In some ways, it’s kind of a game.  I’ve got my budget lined up, with projected monthly expenses, and that tells me how much money I need to make to break even.  The object of the game is to find creative ways to make that money.

This is what I spend most of my day doing.  Some interesting  prospects include:

  1. Freelance editing.  A roommate of a friend of mine has actually contracted with me to do this for a company he recently started.  It isn’t steady work, but $40-$60 per job for basically reworking a piece of fantasy, it isn’t bad either.
  2. Freelance translation.  A friend of mine from the FLSR told me all about this.  Basically, I just need to set up a free account at proz.com, post my resume, set up paypal, and start taking jobs.  Again, it isn’t steady, but it’s promising.
  3. Temp work.  As luck would have it, there’s a temp agency across the street from my apartment, and a friend of mine already works there.  It’s just filler until I get a real job, but it seems to pay fairly well, though the labor is mostly grunt work.  Still, better grunt work than office work.
  4. Working for a teleresearch company down the street.  It isn’t the best kind of work, but it’s a job, it’s got flexible openings, and it’s local.
  5. Anything legit on craigslist.
  6. Anything from the Wilk boards (though it’s kind of skimpy right now).
  7. Donating plasma.  Hey, $65 a week is better than nothing.

So that’s what I’m thinking about doing to hold me over until I get a real job.  My goal for May is to make more money than I spend.

Really, though, I don’t need a job for the money–I’ve got enough cash saved up to last at least through the summer.  I need a job for the sense of security.  It’s hard to focus on writing when I don’t know how I’m going to support myself.

Another danger with unemployment is the lack of structure.  When you don’t have to get up and go to work, you find yourself getting up later and later.  If you don’t have to do anything, you generally don’t accomplish very much.  It’s hard to stay productive in the face of so much free time.

Still, I’m going to try.  I’m keeping up with my writing, doing about 3k-4k words per day on the revision of Mercenary Savior.  I’ve got a handful of submissions out on Genesis Earth, and I’m going to keep a steady number of submissions out at any time.  I’ve also been submitting my unpublished short stories, so we’ll see where that goes.

In the meantime, I’ll keep looking for a day job while I play the game of financial independence.  It’s an adventure.

    Graduation!

    So last week, I graduated from college!  That’s right: college is OVER!  No more papers, no more homework, no more tests or quizzes or theses or final projects…at least until I decide I miss it all and go back to grad school.

    It was a big week, not only because of the ceremonies, but because of all the family that came down for the event.  It was great to see all my sisters, baby Jane, a bunch of my cousins who came down for our Italian barbeque (salad, lasagna, and garlic bread on the porch), and everyone else who came.

    The ceremonies were interesting too.  Elder Christofferson gave the commencement speech, and I was very pleased that he referenced Hugh Nibley.  Man, if Nibley were still alive (or maybe if he could come back from the dead), it would be absolutely awesome if he could give the commencement address, but Elder Christofferson was pretty good too.

    The convocation Friday was very long, but fortunately I snuck a novel in: Dying of the Light by George R. R. Martin.  Made some decent headway in it, too.  There was a very interesting talk, though.  One of the retiring faculty told a story from when she was a student in a wilderness class.

    As they were making their way down a river canyon and came to the end of the bank, she thought to herself “it will be alright if I can just keep my boots dry.” As the water became deeper, that changed to “it will be alright if I can keep my pack dry.” Eventually, however, they had to swim, and everything got wet.  Still, they made a fire, dried everything out, and had a good time.

    The story was meant to illustrate that life in the real world is like that.  When you start out, you worry about a lot of things, but when you look back after many years have passed, those small setbacks don’t seem like anything to worry too much about.

    Well, that’s where I am right now: unemployed, looking for a plan for the next five years.  My plan A is still to break into publishing, but I’m going to need a secondary career or day job to  get by in the short to medium term.  I have no idea what that entails,  but at least I’m graduating debt free, with money in the bank.  That helps.

    Two years ago, I was terrified of graduating and setting out into the “real world.” A year ago, I realized I had grown out of college life and needed to move on.  Now, I have no idea what I’m doing, but life is an adventure and I’m confident things will work out for the best.

    Quick post from Provo

    This is going to be quick, because it’s late at night and I want to get some sleep.

    I made it to Provo.  I’m currently staying with an old roommate, sleeping on his couch.  To do: find a job and a place to live.  Fortunately, I’ve just about got the second one secured.

    I talked with the editors at Leading Edge today, and they told me they’ve been having problems with the buy function on their website.  If you tried to buy a copy of issue 58 (the one with my story) before this month, they probably lost your address.  Don’t worry, they voided the purchase, but if you want a copy you’ll have to go through the process again.  Sorry for the hassle.

    Wrote the last academic paper of my undergraduate college career today.  The last freaking paper. Hooray!

    I dropped in to English 318 tonight, and a couple of Sanderson fans got engaged in front of the whole class.  It was pretty cool, not the least because they were cosplaying at the same time.  Good luck, Mi’chelle!  May you and your future husband have a wonderful life together!

    Thanks for all the feedback on the new title.  I think I’m going to stick with it.  It’s weird to call the book by a different name after working on it for so long under the other title, but I think Mercenary Savior works much better.

    Looked up Westercon today and found out it’s only $60.  Thinking seriously about going.  Should I?  Is anyone else planning on going?

    To do tomorrow: get cap and gown, complete and file taxes, sign a spring/summer contract, meet up with old supervisors/professors in pursuit of a job, go to a bonfire and have a good time.

    My mom always got depressed with to do lists; she always felt daunted when she saw all the tasks she needed to accomplish.  To counteract this, she made a “tasks accomplished” list at the end of the day to make her feel better.  So, on that note:

    Accomplished: finished all Washington Seminar coursework, attended English 318 and obtained leads for Mormon Artist article, attended Leading Edge and caught up with the slushies, got a date for next Friday (totally unrelated), submitted Genesis Earth to an agent, wrote +2.2k in Mercenary Savior.

    Not bad.  Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to crash for the night.

    Genesis Earth 4.0 is complete!

    And it’s about time. I started this back in September, thinking I could easily get it done before World Fantasy 2009. More than a month after the convention, and five days after the last self-imposed deadline, it’s done!

    Alright, here are the stats:

    ms pages: 270
    words: 73,009
    file size: 492 KB
    chapters: 16, prologue & epilogue
    start date: 28 September 2009
    end date: 4 December 2009

    Wordle: Genesis Earth 4.0

    When I finished, I was listening to “To far away times” from the Chrono Trigger soundtrack. It fit the mood perfectly–absolutely perfectly. The epilogue might be a little cheesy (if you were one of my alpha/beta readers, you’ll know why–thanks, Gini!), but in a good way, I think. Anyways, here’s the track:

    It took me forever to finish this draft, but that’s what happens when you’re swamped with school, I guess. If this were the summer and I had nothing else on my plate, I probably could have finished it in 17 days (or less) like the 3.0 draft.

    For a more detailed breakdown, here is a graph of my daily wordcount for the project:

    Genesis Earth 4.0 daily wordcount

    Overall, though, I’m very satisfied with my work.  I’m sure that if/when it gets picked up by a publisher, they will have a multitude of editorial critiques and suggestions, but I can honestly say this draft is as neat and polished as I can make it.

    It’s time to send it out!

    An existential time of year

    School has been kicking my trash this semester. Maybe it’s senioritis or something, but I feel like I’m doing half the work I did as a junior and still, all I can do is put out fires.

    I was hoping to be finished with Genesis Earth 4.0 by now, but it’s looking like that won’t happen until the end of this week.  If I really push myself, I could probably get it done tomorrow…in fact, I may just do that.  Schoolwork can wait–this is what I want to do with my life.

    Around this time of year, my thoughts tend to become morose and existential.  Maybe it’s the lack of sunlight, or the end-of-semester crunch, but I always wonder why I’m doing what I’m doing, what the point of it is, where I’m headed in my life–that kind of stuff.  For some reason, I get the feeling that my life is empty in some way.

    It’s not overwhelming, fortunately.  I don’t have depression or anything like that.  Just…a sense of discontentment.  Maybe it has to do with finals.  I don’t know.

    But I do know that it sucks to be pulled in so many different directions all the time.  Classes, work, writing, classes; finals, papers, papers and finals to grade, writing, more papers and finals.  It sucks.  I can’t wait until graduation!

    (talk about famous last words o.O )

    In any case, Genesis Earth is just about finished.  I’m finding that the closer I get to the end, the more I find that needs to be revised.  I’ll probably have to insert a new scene in the second to last chapter, just to tie them closer together.  For some reason, the last chapter feels too…short.  And disconnected.  Dammit.

    And then, sometime between now and my personal exodus from Provo, I need to look up places to submit this thing.  I haven’t even begun to do that.  Crap.  Since this is the most polished draft of anything I’ve done up to this point, I’m going to be pretty hard core about submitting.

    And then, somehow, I need to finish the second draft for Bringing Stella Home before New Years.  Holy crap, that novel is so full of holes.  I’m not going to even begin to be able patch them until the third draft, whenever that happens.  Inshallah, I can get that done over Christmas break…inshallah.

    And then, something entirely new!  But it’s past 1am, so I’m not going to elaborate.  I’ve got some cool ideas, though–some crazy cool ideas.  Stay tuned.

    Must…build…momentum

    Man, nothing throws a kink in your writing life like a major paper.  This semester, I’ve got the mother of all undergraduate papers to write–the CAPSTONE.

    Interestingly enough, I’ve been having a lot of fun with mine.  A lot. I’ll spare you the gory details, but basically my capstone is a statistical study of the effects of Israeli politics on the Israeli-Palestinian conflict, specifically whether Israeli political fragmentation leads to increases in the level of conflict.  One of these days, I’ll get around to showing you the tables, because they are fairly compelling.

    Well, on Monday, the rough draft was due–the complete rough draft.  Minimum: 20 pages.  Professor Christensen doesn’t care how you get your paper in, though, so long as it’s on his desk when he shows up for work Tuesday morning.  So basically, I locked myself in the SWKT and wrote the last half of the thing in the TA office.  The building closed, but around midnight I finished the thing and slipped it into the dropbox!  Huzzah!

    And now that my capstone is complete (at least, the first draft), you have NO IDEA how liberated I feel!  It’s awesome! Like, I actually have free time right now!  It’s been so long, I’ve totally forgotten what that feels like.  Freedom!

    And now that I look back on the last three weeks of my writing, all I can say is ouch.

    I’ve hardly worked on either of my novels at all these past two weeks.  The 7-day word counts have been steadily dwindling, and last week it actually hit zero.  Yikes!  I don’t think that’s happened since…since finals last semester or something.

    Well, I’m going to fix that!  Yesterday, I churned through about 2.5k words in the revision of Genesis Earth, and I plan to keep it up all this week until school starts beating me up again.  That probably won’t be until after Thanksgiving, which gives me just enough time to finish this revision.

    Hopefully, this week I’ll be able to do at least 1.5k daily.  It’s going to take hard work to build momentum again, but once I’m up and running, finishing this beast shouldn’t be hard.  Then I can devote more time to finishing the current incarnation of Bringing Stella Home, which should have been finished long ago.

    And then, finally…something new!

    Freaking busy

    Sorry for not posting; I’ve been ridiculously busy these past few days.  As in, I don’t think I can remember ever being this busy.  Maybe when I was taking PL SC 310, but then again…that was more stressful than busy.

    I’m working two jobs (two awesome TA jobs, by the way), I’m taking 15 credit hours of classes, and I’m applying to 9 or 10 internships in Washington DC for the winter.  All of my classes are upper level, including my capstone class, which is pretty intensive.

    I read maybe 7 or 8 academic articles a week and about 150 pages of philosophy and other texts.  I grade dozens of papers, tests, and quizzes, write papers (anywhere from 6 to 12 pages each), and spend virtually all of my waking life on campus.

    It’s insane.  On a typical day, I leave my apartment at 7:30 or 8:30 in the morning and only come back  for dinner (and maybe an hour of homework).  Then it’s back to the library until midnight, when it closes.

    I feel like a slave.

    Still, even though I haven’t been blogging much, I have been writing consistently, even through the worst of it.  Right now, I’m running about 6k to 7k a week, which isn’t as much as I’d like but is surprising, considering everything else.

    The only time I really have to write these days is from 10:00 pm to midnight, up at the library.  If I’m lucky, I’ll slip in about half an hour in the morning, but most of the writing happens at night.

    The thing that gets to me, though, is that I probably won’t have the 4th draft of Genesis Earth finished before World Fantasy.  With my crazy workload, I just don’t think it’s going to happen.  The first three chapters are finished, but the rest of the ms?  Unfortunately, it needs more time.

    Blegh.  I can’t wait until I’m out of school.  Hopefully, things won’t be as insanely busy.

    But I’m probably wrong.

    Hellish week (and I’m still crossing my fingers)

    Holy cow, this week was insane.  INSANE. Two papers (13 pages and 8 pages respectively) in one week, hours and hours wrestling with Sambanis’s Civil War dataset and Excel (I wish I knew STATA–it’s so much more useful for analyzing ginormous datasets), 33 tests to grade (of which I’ve only graded about 11), peer reviewing two research proposals, about half a dozen dense poli sci articles…

    I could continue the list, but I think it would bore you.  Suffice it to say that the Homework Alert Level has been on RED since Monday.  Not good–and damnably frustrating, since it eats up all my writing time.  Unsustainable.

    However, by 3pm today, all the major hurdles were finished. Thank goodness!  And I not only got some writing in, I finished reading a book.  It was a pretty good one–I’ll review it sometime later.

    But, in completely unrelated news, I just want to let you know…

    The second round of honorable mentions for the Writers of the Future contest has come out.  I’m not on the list.

    I also have not received a rejection letter…yet.

    <crosses fingers> <crosses fingers> <crosses fingers>

    Polishing is harder than it looks

    It is.  This is the final revision of Genesis Earth before I submit this novel everywhere, and it’s tough.  I’m changing a lot more than I thought I would, and it’s going a lot slower than any other process so far.

    Plus, on my way to Murray for my mission reunion, the service light for my engine flipped on.  What the heck?  I just had the car serviced a month ago!

    At least I know about it now, before I attempt to drive to San Jose for World Fantasy.

    Long story short, showed up at 9pm to the reunion just in time to say hi to President and Sister Heywood as they were getting ready to leave.  So worth it, though.  They’re both getting older, and I don’t know when I’ll be seeing them again.  Listened to From Cumorah’s Hill on the way back, and it was awesome.  I mean that in a religious way.

    I’ve got a research proposal due tomorrow, and I kid you not, I was working on that thing in my sleep last night.  All night, while I was dreaming, I was thinking “should I use this author in my paper?  How should I tie that in?  What controls do I need to use?  Will this dataset cover the same years as that dataset?” All. Night. Long.

    And then I forgot it all when I woke up!

    I did get some time to write, though.  Took the netbook up to the laundry room in the FLSR (I still go there–much cheaper than my current apartment) and worked on my novel while waiting for the laundry to finish.  Good times–some of my best writing has come out of that laundry room.  Award winning writing.

    In tangentially related news, I still have not heard back from Writers of the Future.  I’m guessing that’s a good thing <crosses fingers>.

    I want to see this movie

    It looks really good. Dark, depressing, and very, very graphic, but good.

    I mean, check out the animation:

    Awesome.

    I think my Middle East studies major has desensitized me to a lot of the violence in that part of the world. Probably not as much as if I were caught up in the conflict on the ground, but still, quite a bit.

    Lots of material for stories, though. Lots of material.