Three day weekends!

Ok, this is going to be a quick post because it’s late and I CRAVE sleep.

I tried this semester to schedule all my classes on Tuesday and Thursday, and because of that I wasn’t rehired at the BYU bookstore because I didn’t have mornings open TTh.  Suck.  What’s more, I ended up having to schedule a couple of classes on Monday and Wednesday, so I wasn’t even able to have the awesome MWF free schedule that I wanted in the first place.  Double suck.  HOWEVER, I DO have Fridays free, and it is heaven!  Three day weekends all semester!  Woot!

Also, you know what?  Every time I get fired and/or lose my job, it ends up being a great blessing–exactly what I needed at the time, even.  I lost my job in the MTC cafeteria right before the start of a really killer semester, and I know I would have been horribly overwhelmed if I’d had to work as well as study.  And the next semester, when things cooled down, I got the bookstore job, and it was awesome.  While it lasted, that is.

But even though I wish I could still be working for the bookstore, I think in the long run it’s going to be a blessing.  Today as I was looking on the job boards in the wilk, I saw three openings in the FHSS writing lab.  They pay fairly good–about $8.95/hr–and I was surprised to find that I met and/or exceeded all of their qualifications for the job.  So I dropped by the lab, picked up an application, and tomorrow I’m going to drop it by and hopefully get interviewed.  Inshallah, everything will go well and I’ll soon be getting paid to help students in my college write their papers.

Man, I’m just blessed.  Life is beautiful and I love it.

As far as writing goes, I painfully rewrote the first chapter of Hero in Exile and sent it off with the rest of the Quark submissions.  Yes, the Quark writing group is starting up again.  I hope that this year it will be better than ever!  We only got three submissions for our first meeting, but once we get on a roll I think things will really take off.  Inshallah, we’ll get plenty of new members this year to keep the club going strong.

The short story I mentioned in my previous post is off to a rocky start, but it’s going fairly well.  I’m going to try to finish it in the next week or so–before life shifts again and I lose the perspective that impelled me to write the story in the first place.

And now, SLEEEEEEEP!   Why?  Because tomorrow is the last day of the BYU Bookstore’s progressive booksale, where everything is 90% off, and I want first dibs!  And after that…THREE DAY WEEKEND!!!

Hero in Exile

Today I finally started writing my new novel.  Yay!  Despite the fact that it was like pulling teeth to get the words on that first page–and I’ll probably end up rewriting it a dozen times or more–it was good to fill up that empty page with something.  800 words, and even if it was hard after so much time not writing, it was good to get it up.

While I was writing, I chatted with a bunch of my friends and asked them what kind of a title I should use for it.  The working title was Exodus to the Stars, and that just didn’t feel right.  Of course, it was kind of lazy for me to ask everyone else, and they couldn’t do much to help me.  It was good to chat with my friends, although maybe I do that a little too much.

The title I ended up settling on was Hero in Exile.  It might sound a little bit corny, but I like it at this point–at least more than Exodus to the Stars.  And really, even though the title doesn’t objectively matter at this point, it does to me.  Maybe it just gives me confidence and drive to be writing a story that has an awesome title.  Maybe I just can’t stand lame titles at all.  I don’t know.

So, after weeks of playing this opening scene and maybe half a dozen others over and over in my mind, it’s starting to come together.  I hope my writing has improved–it’s unnerving to reread The Lost Colony and see just how cheesy the writing is in my first novel–but really, I can’t afford to worry about that now.  Just gotta keep pushing forward.

New writing goals

Alright, the first week of school is behind me, I’m probably as settled in as I’m ever going to be, so it’s time I set some personal writing goals for myself this semester. So here goes.

My major goal, at this point, is to have three polished novel drafts in time for World Fantasy 2009 in San Jose, California. So far, I’ve got one complete rough draft, one incomplete rough draft, and a REALLY cool idea for a new novel that is just itching to be written. I’ve got a lot of other stuff, too, but that stuff has been dead and buried for a while, and I’m not sure whether I want to bring it back just yet.

So, if these are indeed the three novels that I want to have ready by next year, here are some goals:

  • Finish the second draft of The Lost Colony by January 1st, 2009.
  • Write at least 500 words per day.
  • Write one article in the wiki outline for the new story each day.

The first one is pretty straightforward. I’ve got to polish The Lost Colony and get it to the point where I feel like I can send it out. It won’t be perfect by any stretch, but polished enough to send it out. With four months to finish the rewrite, hopefully I can put this project in the backseat while I focus most of my energies on the new stuff.

The second goal is also really straightforward. 500 words per day, as I discovered with The Lost Colony, is very reasonable. It’s a good starting place, and if I feel like I’m doing well enough, I can always increase it to 1,000 like I did last year (and successfully kept it, for the most part).

The last goal is something of an experiment for me. My least favorite part of the writing process is probably prewriting–all the outlining, worldbuilding, planning, etc. I tend to do all that stuff in my head, not on paper, and I come up with as much as 60% of it as I go along. That’s just how I tend to write. However, I’ve never really tried the alternative, and I think it would be a really interesting experiment to see what happens if I formally plan things out before I sit down and write it. Maybe it’ll work. Maybe I’ll hate it. Maybe both. Whatever happens, I’ll be sure to let you know.

These goals are all pretty straightforward and practical. That’s not what goals are for, however. They exist to push you. So, in order to push myself, I’m going to give myself a goal that’s just a little bit reckless:

  • Finish the second draft of the untitled novel by May 1st, 2009.

Wow. This is crazy. I proved this past year that I could write a 168,000 rough draft in nine months. But this? I’d practically have to finish the thing by January/February in order to have time for the rewrite! And yet, if I can churn out at least a decently polished draft of a novel every 3/4’s of a year, that’s impressive. It might just be enough to prove that I can do this successfully full time (gasp!).

They say that you need to produce a novel a year in order to make a living as a writer. Last year, I proved that I could produce a rough draft in a little less than a year, but a solid, polished draft? Didn’t happen.

But maybe, just maybe, I can prove myself with this next novel. Maybe. We’ll see. At the very least, it’s worth the challenge.

First week craziness

So, this last week was the first week of school.  It was as crazy as anything.  Back to classes, back to papers, readings, buying books, waking up early…everything.

Fortunately, even though I’m taking six classes, three of them are only two credit hours, so the load is going to be somewhat lighter, freeing me up for time to do other things (clubs,  blogging, writing, dating etc…inshallah), and several of the classes are actually fairly interesting.  The poli sci 201 class in particular looks interesting–we’re reading all kinds of ancient texts (like Homer and Dante) and tying it in with Western political thought.

Unfortunately, a lot hasn’t been going very well this week either.  Just lots and lots of hoops to jump through, payments to make, expenses and such.  The little stuff really grates on me, especially when it doesn’t line up.  Probably has to do with my ENTP personality type.  The bigger stuff is harder to handle but I don’t flare up over it.

I don’t know where I’ll be working this semester, and that’s an issue.  I had thought that I would just be rehired by the BYU Bookstore, but right now that’s looking unlikely, because due to my class schedule I can’t work M-F.  It would be nice–REALLY nice–to get a TA job, but nothing has worked out so far.  Or maybe I could go and work for that used bookstore downtown?  THAT would be nice.

So, with all of these stresses and stuff, and just my general disorganization, I’m sad to admit that I haven’t really been doing much writing…but I have been working to get the quark writing group started up again, and I am starting to formulate some really awesome writing goals for this semester.  More on that to come.

And I even if I haven’t actually put any words down in the new novel I plan on writing this year, I’ve been thinking about it A LOT.

This week, as I was walking home to the FLSR under the sunny blue sky, I saw a patch of grass on a hill and decided to lay down and relax for a bit.  As I lay there, drifting in and out of consciousness, I just immersed myself in the world of this new story, working out all the details for the first scene.  That led me to ask several questions about the characters (who are they?  what are they feeling/thinking?  what kind of a background do they have?) which got me to think through their back-stories, and the tribe they come from, and inter-family conflicts, and how I can tie all those into other characters and conflicts later on in the story.  I fell asleep for a little bit, and when I woke up, it was like I was waking up to a new world, coming down from meditating on a mountaintop or something.  Really sweet feeling.  I love taking naps on the grass.

There is SO much I have to blog about!  But it’s 1:58 am and I’d better get some sleep.  Tusbah ‘ala al-kheer!

Figuring out my Characters

I am REALLY close to starting work on my next novel.  It’s an exciting time.

Last time, I didn’t do a lot of planning/worldbuilding before I started: I just had a bunch of general ideas and did the worldbuilding as I went along. This time, I’m doing something of an experiment: I’m doing most of the worldbuilding before I sit down and write the first chapter. Hopefully, this will help me figure out what kind of a writer I am.  

Today, as I was thinking about my characters, I decided that I wanted to know them before I wrote about them.  I don’t want them to be flat, I want them to be complex, interesting, and real. So does everybody, of course, but I figured that to do this it would be better to have an idea of who they are before I start writing from their perspectives.  And what’s a better way to figure people out than personality tests?  I love personality tests, especially the Meyers and Briggs test (the four letter one: I am an ENTP). How cool would it be to build your characters through Jungian personality types?  Yeah, pretty cool.  Needless to say, I had a lot of fun.

It’s tough, though, because the different sites I went to all said different things about the same personality types (I used the personality pagetypelogic.com, wikipedia, and kiersley.com).  The site that was the most useful was also the site that did the worst describing my own personality.  I don’t know if that’s going to hurt the story, but the descriptions made sense and spurred my imagination the most, so I think it will work out in the end.  After all, these are not hard and fast rules for my characters–they’re starting points for me to build off of.  I’m sure that as the story progresses, the characters will come to life and defy my expectations.

I have three main characters that I need to model: Tristen, Mira, and Kayleigh (I might end up changing Kayleigh’s name, though).  I already have a basic idea who they are, but I need to take things further in order to write really close to them.Tristen is someone who wants to be a hero.  I’ve written about him before.  He’s the kind of guy who would willingly put his life on the line to save a stranger.  He has a strong sense of honor and is willing to make spectacular sacrifices to do what is right.

Trouble is, life is never that simple.  More often than not, it’s more important to be consistent in the little things than to sporadically make the dramatic sacrifices.  That means, of course, that Tristen needs a good-natured woman who is consistent in doing the small, daily tasks without needing recognition.

I might as well warn you, there will be spoilers in the rest of this post.  Consider yourself warned.

The thing is, though, that before Tristen meets Kayleigh, he needs to be confused, burned, and tortured with regards to women and relationships.  I can’t tell you why, I just know that that’s the way it is.  And so, I’ve figured out EXACTLY how I’m going to do it.  It involves a horribly awkward and painful falling out with Mira, which is mostly brought about by circumstances outside of either of their control, but also involves some key elements in her personality.

Basically, she has to be the kind of person who would be a perfect match for him–someone whom he feels he shouldn’t leave.  They have to be good friends, understand each other well, be really close to each other, but then circumstances conspire, present two equally distasteful choices to Tristen, and he chooses the one that takes him away from her–all the while wondering “should I have stayed?”

Enough of the introduction.  That’s basically who I need these characters to be for the purposes of the story.  But who are they beyond that?

I started out by reading the descriptions of the four preferences, then working backwards to figure out Tristen’s Jungian personality type.  Since he really wants to be a hero, I considered making him a J instead of a P.  Trouble is, I’m a P and I don’t really understand Js all that well.  If I’m going to be close to this character, he’s got to be somebody that I can understand.  Call it taking the easy way out, but I decided to make him a little more like me.

I decided to make him an ESTP, “the Doer.” There were a lot of things I really liked about this personality type.  He’s extroverted, thinking, and perceiving, all like me, but the sensing part of his personality means that he “lives in the here and now,” has a “do it and get on with it” kind of attitude, and is more of a “straight-forward risk taker.” Sounds like it has the potential for an interesting story.  Besides that, ESTP’s “can sometimes be hurtful to others without being aware of it, as they generally do not know and may not care about the effect their words have on others.”

Even though they may disagree with the establishment, they have a “strong belief in what’s right and wrong” and “their own integrity mandates that they will not do something that they feel is wrong.” This gives me the impression that I can successfully write an ESTP character that feels real while having a very strong personal ethical code, something that I want Tristen to have.

Relationships-wise, things get really interesting.  ESTPs tend to be weak on commitment and want to approach everything in a “big way.” Plenty of room for conflict here: difficulty settling down, combined with a tendency towards the dramatic and spectacular rather than the simple and consistent.  That sounds just about right.

It was even more fun to figure out Kayleigh’s personality type.  In fact, I learned quite a bit about her as I did this.  The personality page says that ESTP’s natural partners are the ISTJ or the ISFJ.  Again, however, the whole J thing kind of threw me off.  Js tend to be planners and organizers, while Ps (like myself) take things one day at a time and can be impulsive and spontaneous.  That’s the kind of person I can relate to easier, so that’s the kind of person I want to write about.

When I started reading about the ISFP, “the Artist,” I felt like I was reading an outline on this character that I’d written myself.  I don’t even know Kayleigh’s exact role in the plot, but her character just jumped out at me.  It was fun.

ISFPs (according to the personality page) are “warm and sympathetic” and “genuinely care for other people.” They also “have a strong set of values” and will “rebel against anything” that conflicts with their need to “feel as if they’re living their lives in accordance with what they feel is right.” They are quiet, don’t look for recognition, and don’t have any interest in controlling (or being controlled by) others, but at the same time can exhibit “carefree light heartedness.” One thing I thought was particularly interesting was that even though they appear light hearted, underneath it all they are quite serious and don’t share their thoughts except with their closest friends.  I think my friend and former roommate Steve is an ISFP.

The thing that worried me, though, was that the main thing about ISFPs is their artistic flair, the thing that defines them.  This is really what defines them, and it’s something I didn’t really have in mind for Kayleigh.  However, as I thought about it, the more it made sense.  Kayleigh lives on a spaceship with her family, and things can get a little bit monotonous and humdrum in such a confined space.  Having someone who can pay attention to sensory details and add color and life to a place can be really refreshing.  In fact, this might be the thing that really catches Tristen’s attention (besides her physical attractiveness).  That’s a possibility I hadn’t thought of before–one that really leads off to a ton of exciting and interesting possibilities.

I haven’t really given a lot of thought to Mira’s personality yet.  However, ISFJ, “the Nurturer,” really makes sense to me.  First of all, ISFJ is one of the natural partners for ESTP.  Second of all, Mira is from a planet-based culture that avoids the rest of civilization and is steeped in tradition.  From what I read about ISFJs, they seem to be more homely, with “respect for traditions and laws” and a knack for homemaking.  At the same time, they need affirmation and tend to blame themselves while putting others’ needs above their own.  It’s important to the plot that Mira is used as a pawn by another character (her father), so this fits really well.

All in all, it was really fun to play around with personality types and build my characters a little better.  There is still a lot of work to do, of course, and I really do expect that they’ll take a life of their own and do things I wasn’t expecting.  Like I said before, this is more of a starting point–but I think it’s a good one!  We’ll see how it plays out once I start writing. 

Critical Mass

Stars form when billions of tons of gas, scattered across space in the midst of an impossibly huge nebula, gradually come together through the attractive pull of gravity.  Over the course of thousands of years, these gases slowly, almost imperceptibly come together, until they reach a critical mass.  When that critical mass is achieved, the ball of gas falls in on itself and ignites a trememndous nuclear reaction, millions of times more powerful than all the nuclear weapons of Earth with more than a trillion times the longevity.  Thus a new star is born.

Writing is not that much different; at least, not for me.  My mind is like a vast nebula of thoughts, ideas, feelings, impressions, images, and memories.  Gradually, almost imperceptibly, these ideas start to congregate.  As I work each one out and give it shape and gravity, they slowly start to fall into each other.  Some of them have more weight and fall faster, while others drift away.  Eventually, these ideas reach a critical mass–and when they do, they rapidly fall into each other and come together, igniting an exciting plotline.  A story is born, just screaming at me to be written.

This past week, the ideas for my next story came together and reached that critical mass…

Down to the last stretch

…in more ways than one.  School is coming to a close, I’m making my final preparations for the study abroad, and this novel is only one or two chapters from completion (in rough draft form, that is.  Very rough draft form).  Now that I’m almost finished with this draft of the novel, I’m able to see a number of things I’ve learned about writing from the experience…