October reading recap

Books that I finished

Fitzpatrick’s War by Theodore Judson

A Man Called Trent by Louis L’Amour

The MAGA Doctrine by Charlie Kirk

How to Write a Screenplay by Mark Evan Schwartz

Wired for Story by Lisa Cron

The Tree of Life by John Welch and Donald W. Parry, eds.

Blood of Amber by Roger Zelazny

Pardon of Innocence by Michael Flynn

Love Worth Making by Stephen Snyder

A Conflict of Visions by Thomas Sowell

Temple Theology: An Introduction by Margaret Barker

In It Together by Janci Patterson

The Mythmakers by John Hendrix

Books that I DNFed

  • The Mom Test by Rob Fitzpatrick
  • Goliath’s Curse by Luke Kemp
  • So You Want to Start a Podcast by Kristen Meinzer
  • Write a Must Read by AJ Harper
  • The Big One by Michael T. Osterhom and Mark Olshaker
  • AI Needs You by Verity Harding
  • Why Nations Fail by Daron Acemoglu and James Robinson
  • Women’s Anatomy of Arousal by Sheri Winston
  • The Culture of Narcissism by Christopher Lasch
  • Understanding the Signs of the Times by Donald W. Parry and Jay A. Parry
  • Shadow of the Conqueror by Shad M. Brooks

I just gotta fisk this

There have been a lot of incredible online reactions to the Charlie Kirk assassination, ranging from the tear-jerking, restore-your-faith-in-humanity type, to some of the most vile, evil, and disgusting displays of inhumanity that one can see. But when I saw this one, I just had to react to it, because… we’ll, you’ll see.

I made some stupid comments about Charlie Kirk on the day that he was shot.

In other words, you took off the mask and revealed who you really are.

I said some things on Blue Sky and on threads that I I’m sorry, not sorry for,

Making a cute face while committing a minor social taboo might earn you a few chuckles when you’re four. But when you are a grown man in his forties? fifties? with facial hair (and a nose ring? seriously, dude, WTF?) it just makes you a creeper—and when the taboo is NORMALIZING MURDER, it launches you into psychopath territory. Especially when you make that creepy cutesy face.

but I said them and I deleted them when it was requested that I do so by my employer.

And you think that made it okay? That you could just put the mask back on, and everything would go back to the way it was? No way, dude. If I were your coworker and I saw your post, I would go straight to HR and tell them that you make me feel unsafe. And then I would go to law enforcement and say the same thing.

And then today on a weekend, on a weekend,

Oh, poor baby. Did your weekend get ruined? That must have really sucked. After all, it was only a Wednesday when Erika Kirk became a widow, and her children lost their father. But hey, at least it wasn’t a weekend for her.

I’m told that I am no longer employed at Microsoft.

Thank God. I’m sure your coworkers are all grateful too.

After six years building the diversity, equity, and inclusion department from scratch,

Why am I not surprised?

I lose my job because one of you, some random person reports my posts to my employer, goes out of their way to find out where I work

No, you didn’t lose your job because of what THEY said, you lost your job because of what YOU said. It’s called consequences. Actions have them. How are you a grown man and only learning this now?

and takes my job, takes my security away from me

What makes you think that having a job is a human right? That the world—nay, the universe itself—owes you anything? You should be losing a lot more than your job, dude.

for a thought, for an opinion

You were not fired for having an “opinion.” You were fired for SUPPORTING AND ENCOURAGING MURDER.

and you talk about freedom speech like you care about it

You are absolutely free to say what is in your heart. And your employer is absolutely free to fire you for it. Isn’t it a great country?

and you’re just going to take my my money, my life, my food off my plate

You don’t exactly seem to be hurting for food, buddy. Also, food stamps are a thing. So are mental institutions. I hear they still feed the people in those.

because I don’t like Charlie Kirk.

Is that seriously what you think this is about? Because right now, I’m seeing lots of people—including the leftist activist who was debating Charlie Kirk at the moment he was shot—who had no love or liking for the man, but who can still say that it wasn’t right that he was murdered.

But frankly, I think you know that. I think you know exactly how evil your heart has become. I think you’re just trying to hide it from us, with all of your equivocations, and understatements, and cutesy voices and faces and all.

And sadly, I think the person you’re trying the most to hide it from is yourself. Is it working?

That’s not okay. It is not okay to target me because I felt joy that day.

In a country without law, I would absolutely target you. With death. Not out of anger or outrage, but because psychopaths like you are dangerous—especially psychopaths who genuinely feel joy at the murder of another human being.

Fortunately, we have laws in this country, and authorities who enforce those laws from psychopaths like you. Which is why people like me don’t need to resort to violence to make sure that our children grow up safe. Pray that never changes.

I can’t help how I feel.

Let me tell you something I told my five year-old the other night. You can’t always choose the way you feel, but you can always choose what you do about the way you feel.

With consequences, it’s the opposite: you can choose your actions, but you can’t choose the consequences of your actions.

How are you a grown man and you don’t know these things?

More importantly, how can someone like you, who has less emotional maturity than my five year-old daughter, land a job at a company like Microsoft?

Oh, yeah. You worked in the DEI department. Explains a lot.

I felt joy. That’s me.

For Charlie’s sake, I will pray that isn’t the case. Because if Charlie Kirk could respond to your video, he would tell you that that isn’t you, but the demonic spirit within you. So for Charlie’s sake, I will pray for you.

That’s what I believe. That’s what I think of of him. I can’t help that. So, I don’t deserve a job?

No, you do not deserve a job. Not at Microsoft, and not anywhere else.

And frankly, if you ever became my coworker, I would go straight to HR and tell them that your presence makes me fear for my physical safety. Because people who take joy in the murder of someone who believes the things that I believe and values the things that I value—that really does make me feel unsafe. Especially when that person was murdered because of those values and beliefs.

So even though I will pray for you, I sincerely hope that every prospective employer sees your original action video, as well as this one, and uses that to guide their hiring decision. @cassiesmith2788 said it best:

You lost a job for what you said. Charlie lost his life for what he said. Consider yourself lucky.

Where do we go from here?

So the alleged shooter has been found, and it appears that he acted alone. He wasn’t from our local community here in Orem, but he was a fellow Utahan, I am ashamed to say. Still, his arrest does bring a degree of closure to this heinous act, at least in the immediate future, though I suspect we will be experiencing the fallout of this violent assassination for some time to come.

Where do we go from here? I don’t know. A lot of it depends on what happens in the coming days. The tensions are escalating dramatically between the right and the left, so if that escalation leads to physical violence, it could be catastrophic. I hope and pray that that isn’t the case.

On the other hand, I can see a lot of good coming from this tragedy as well. People are comparing Charlie Kirk to Martin Luther King, and saying that this is a turning point for our nation. A lot of people are turning to God because of this, which is gratifying to see. A lot of other people are turning away from the radical left, whose evil is now bare for all to see.

I do think there is a lot of truth in these statements. Decades from now, I think we will look back on this event as the moment when the Great American Revival went mainstream. And just as we look at MLK’s assassination as the moment when segregation lost to the civil rights movement, we will look at this as the moment when the transgender movement and the woke intersectional left decisively lost the culture wars. In the long-term, their voices will fade into irrelevancy until they are little more than a curious footnote to this turbulent period of our history.

But the short-term is much less certain, and it really does feel like our country is poised on the edge of a knife. And when I think of what the future may bring, I can’t help but think of what the prophets and apostles of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints have been preaching for the last several months—specifically, the need for peacemakers in today’s world. There’s a lot of anger on my side of the political divide, some of it righteous, some of it otherwise. But if more good than evil comes of this tragedy, I sincerely believe it will be because of the peacemakers.

In many ways, Charlie Kirk was a peacemaker. He stood up boldly for what he believed, even to the point of controversy, but he was never violent about it. And though he was a passionate debater, he also listened to his opponents, and did his best to understand them and address them in their own terms. It was that quality—his ability to listen—that kept him from crossing the line from debate into contention.

Of course, his opponents hated that, and tried to paint him as a hateful and contentious figure, but all of that was just a projection of their own faults onto him. Everyone who knew him personally—including many of the people who differed with his beliefs—say that he was nothing but gracious to them personally, and went out of his way to reach out to them in their own moments of personal struggle. That is the mark of a peacemaker.

Charlie Kirk showed us how to stand up for our values with words instead of violence. He never compromised his values, but he also treated everyone—including his opponents—as a child of God. That fact made him truly a peacemaker. I can think of no better way to honor his legacy than by following his example.

Further thoughts

I had a few more blog posts scheduled for this week (some of which went out already), but in light of the recent assassination of Charlie Kirk here in Orem, Utah, I’ve decided to hold off on them for a bit. But I do have some further thoughts that may bring a small degree of comfort to those who are mourning or still in shock.

First, imagine if God had a meeting with His archangels back in January, where he said: “unfortunately, Lucifer is going to demand a scalp from us this year, and this time, we have to give it to him. Whose untimely passing will ultimately serve to bring more souls to Christ, and kickstart the revival that the United States so desperately needs?” I honestly don’t think there’s any other person in this country whose martyrdom would better serve the cause of Christ and Christian revival than Charlie Kirk. 

Second, imagine that at some point before we all came to Earth, God took all of the top influencers in alternative/conservative media into a private room, and showed them a preview of everything that they would experience, right up to September 2025. If he then turned and said: “unfortunately, one of you is going to have to take a bullet this month and come home to Me earlier than you would like,” which of them would have been the first to volunteer? It probably would have been Charlie Kirk.

I have more thoughts, but I’ll share them for tomorrow, when I’ve had more time to think them through. Godspeed, friends.

Thoughts on the Charlie Kirk assassination

I heard the news shortly after dropping off my daughter at BYU kindergarten. The shooting apparently happened while we were on the road. Utah Valley University is only a couple of miles from our house, and the hospital where he died is only a mile from us.

I saw the videos of the assassination, including the now-censored one that showed it up close. I also saw the videos of the alleged shooter being hauled off in police custody, though now it appears that the University is saying that he wasn’t the shooter. This is such a fast-moving story that we probably won’t know exactly what happened until at least 24 hours from now, and there may be some things that we never know. And since I wasn’t there when it happened, I can’t comment on the shooting itself.

I just have to say, this is not who we are here in Utah. The shooter may turn out to be a Utah man, but that is not who we are—the rest of us. And I don’t just mean right vs. left, conservative vs. liberal. Most of us here in Utah swing MAGA (in fact, I’ve got a couple of neighbors who are still proudly flying their Trump flags), but we’ve also got some neighbors with rainbow flags and decals, and I’m sure that the vast majority of them are just as horrified that this assassination happened in our community. In fact, they’re probably afraid of how the rest of us will react.

My thoughts and prayers go out to Charlie Kirk’s family. I can’t imagine how horrible that must be, not just to lose your husband and father, but to have the footage of his violent death plastered all over the internet. I hope that more good than evil ultimately comes of this national tragedy, and that Charlie Kirk’s work will live on for many years to come.